I’ve been finding more and more that psychosis mimics many aspects of the NWO, conspiracy theory type stuff. Being monitored, surveillanced, poisoned, controlled, brainwashed, etc… All this has been proven to be very true and very real if you do some real digging and observing. I’m inclined to think psychosis isn’t actually psychosis, by its strict textbook definition, but rather something more – an extra sort of sense that goes haywire because we can’t make sense out of anything we’re receiving through this extra “sense”. That would explain why doctors don’t truly understand anything about it. This kind of stuff is flat out rejected in today’s psychology realm. Voices, demons, angels, things of that nature, could all trace back to fragmentations of oneself, or possibly to real 4th dimensional or extraterrestrial beings. Who’s to say for sure? My reality sure isn’t your reality, and reality’s pretty darn subjective.
It’s as real as a heart attack Jack
This defines my ‘psychosis’. Being constantly brain controlled and surveilled. To the point I even have a camera in my eye and microphones implanted in my ears. Chronic ‘delusion’ but sure as hell seems real to me.
That sounds very awful. I’m really sorry you have to deal with that. I am disinclined to believe that every thought we think, related to our own psychosis, is a delusion. I personally believe there’s an underlying reason for each and every of these so-called delusions. I refuse to think of myself, or anyone as merely a brain gone faulty anymore. There seems to be an invisible, breached dimension of psychosis that science cannot explain. Now, I don’t know how well this would work for you, or for anyone else, but “embracing” that dimension, as it relates to my own experiences – rather than dismissing, ignoring, fighting, and fearing it – has helped me evolve immensely, and understand myself a lot better.
The fact remains that pretty much everyone is being very closely tracked via every technological device they own. This is not a conspiracy theory but an actual proven fact. Just look up Edward Snowden, a very well-known whistleblower. I fear that we are picking up on this blatant invasion of privacy in our own unique ways through an extra “psychic” sense we possess, and it’s ripping us apart because we can’t make logical sense out of the messages, or warnings, you might say. We also cannot control this sense because we might not even be aware of its existence; so the warnings remain persistent, frightening, and real as ever, to the recipient. Honestly, the more you dig up on the reality we’re living here on Earth, the more your personal psychosis might make sense to you. I certainly don’t promise this though. I believe psychosis to be a very personal thing for everyone who experiences it. Its roots and manifestations differ from person to person.
This is the thought that scares me the most. At the moment I believe my psychosis is true, there is a sense of truth in it. Which is horrifying, because the core of my psychosis is that I will go to hell, so I’d rather not want that to be true.
Things have happened though that were either extremely extremely coincidental or a sign that at least parts of my psychosis are true.
TBH I feel defeated and broken so I have no choice but to ‘go along’. When there is no way out of the brain control, the constant personal monitoring and the ‘fake’ reality I am surrounded with, I have no choice but to embrace it. It isn’t optional. Also, my only shot at a semblance of happiness is to just deal with it, which is what I try to do. Maybe, in time, my delusion will go away. Hasn’t so far.
I understand the fear. My delusion is very real to me as well. I am constantly afraid that I am going to be mentally and physically terrorized and perhaps sacrificed and killed. I understand that it is a ‘delusion’ but it is a very, very real fear to me. Normies don’t understand how horrific paranoia can be.
I understand. I pretty much feel the same way. There’s literally nothing else you can do, when all other options have run dry. It’s almost a relief, in a way… giving in, that is. You stop fighting, you stop fearing, you stop everything that never really did you much good anyway, and you just give in – and it’s a relief because it’s the only real reality you know. Forcing yourself to accept a reality you see as fake, in my opinion, is much worse than accepting a reality that nobody else acknowledges.
I have ‘another’ reality. It is the ‘real’ reality but I never get to see it. “They” wont let me. I am stuck in this staged, fake reality and people are absolutely determined to keep up the charade so, like you said, I just give in. Have to. No choice. Example: I don’t believe Donald Trump is President and I don’t believe we are at odds with Russia, in any way. But they won’t let me know who the real President is or what the ‘real’ world is like so I have to deal with the stress of the news everyday. It is stressful because ,while I strongly BELIEVE that this is all a bunch of fake bullsh*it, there is just a smidgen of me that doesn’t know for sure, so I am stressed. The people controlling my brain make sure that I don’t think this reality is real but I have no proof of anything different so I am not sure? They keep me right in that spot. Torn. It sucks.
I think reality is a complete illusion anyway. It’s subjective, considering no two people see its fabric the exact same way. Many things are subjective. I struggle to think of one thing that isn’t. Seems to me the most well-adjusted are also the dullest, because the reality that we all collectively see, but interpret differently, serves as a very rigid box they can’t escape. When reality is fragile and malleable to begin with, it doesn’t take much to mess it all up; a mere crack will do the trick. Then it’s only inevitable that the crack grows into a huge black hole, or perhaps just a huge tangled mess.
i don’t know but i think it’s real… and i believe there is a spiritual meaning behind everything… i believe u create your own hell. i don’t necessarily believe in a god, because well in the spiritual world we are all one god, the same god, in our own unique way, we stem from the same ENERGY, we are all 1 energy.
but i believe that there are entities (physical and nonphysical) that just want power… they manipulate and destroy for the power… anything and anyone… and they only win if you allow them to. it’s a hard fight…
lately there’s been spirits trying to get me to end my life, while i’m sleeping and awake… they try to convince me to end my life multiple different ways. and i believe that if i do it they will take complete control of me because i listened… and use me for more power… of course, i am very strong willed, and while i will admit that i have debated it a few times, i do spend a lot of time thinking about this, and i know that any good spirit no matter what wouldnt try to convince me to end my physical life so early by telling me the spiritual world is so much great and better, while i do believe it is, i also believe my time isn’t done here. and i will die {hopefully} on my own peaceful terms and old age, (vs. some tragic accident) .
the universe is constantly talking to me and giving me signs
I agree @kindness.
Looking back, my Delusions seem so dream like.
Oh it’s the real deal Holyfield !
I had a friend once say to me “perception is reality”. Within the context of our conversation (her total lack of empathy), it was annoying and hurtful. She was suggesting that people hadn’t been unkind to me, but that my perception was off. She wasn’t there when they were mean, so she shouldn’t have said that BUT she is right (much as I hate to admit it) that “perception is reality”. Part of a person’s perception is the way that others treat you. An adored, loved and cherished child lives in an entirely different ‘reality’ than an abused child despite that they both walk to school under the same sun, seeing the same mowed yards. At the end of the day, our experiences reflect our perception and the way others treat us affects our perception. We do not all have the same perception, that is for sure. I wish we did and I wish it was a joyous and peaceful perception. Not the case though.
When psychotic it seems as if I’m breaking into a higher realm surrounded by spiritual energy or something. It’s not good though if it’s true I would rather be on the same level as everyone else. I experienced a lot of strange phenomena like I could predict the future or people knew what I had been doing when I was alone. I also experience physical hallucinations where it feels like someone’s tapping me on the shoulder or leg.
Confirmation bias – the biggest symptom of SZ that nobody talks about, but should be.
Seriously. Some of my goofiest delusions were just extended confirmation bias errors. They’re nasty to shake, though - I just had to decide, like leaping off a cliff, that they were wrong, because as far as I could perceive, they were 110% accurate.
I agree that perception is reality. However, I don’t think this should ever be used to excuse someone’s unkindness. Certainly, whether they were being mean or not, is one thing. Your interpretation of their behavior towards you, is another. Sometimes we get it right and sometimes we don’t, as in, we either see people’s true intentions or we don’t. An oblivious person in the same circumstance could’ve very easily perceived the same behavior as the complete opposite of mean – an example of the subjective nature of perception itself.
Even so, the subjectivity of a person’s perception shouldn’t be used against them to excuse or dismiss the purposeful unkindness of another. Don’t let people pull that whole “perception is reality” card on you. It’s unfair, even if it’s a true statement. Clear evidence and good intuition/insight will help you determine the genuine quality of whatever reality someone may try to completely disregard by pointing out its interpretative quality, or pervert into something serving their own best interest. I suppose when it comes right down to it, it’s a matter of the subjective aspect versus the genuine nature of something. The latter certainly is difficult to discern sometimes when there’s practically an infinite amount of interpretations out there, for any given thing.
Psychosis is real in my house.
Had a friend, my ex mother in law, my own mother, and my current husband all experience stuff that spooked them and they could not find the source, even though they spent quite a bit of time trying.
The only person who refuses to believe any of it happened- usually because it only happened when he was asleep, or out of town.
Do I have pictures, for the most part, but the best things that fascinated me most are not things I’d share.
You wouldn’t believe just how many times I got thrown in the hospital for telling my experience (think Edward Snowden style) and they said I had to be psychotic because the technology to do such things didn’t exist.
Sure, like GPS tracking, number jamming, and video spying on my cell phone…oh but now they do.
Your psychosis is not real. Mine however, is real.