I’m spending impulsively, and I spend hours and hours researching about how to make cards (I feel like its unproductive but I’m still doing it because I am enjoying it), its all I can focus on and think about … and I been waking up 1am, 3am , (even though I go back to sleep eventually ) but even at those hours I am looking at how to make cards in different ways… it’s definitely not mania but it feels annoying cos my mind is wanting to do all these things at once. But I enjoy it at the same time! I bought a spellbinder, a foiling tool, packs of cards, and so many embellishments for these cards, it’s an obsession that feels uncomfortable. i sent some of it back and some is still to arrive. Yet the past few months I was feeling pretty crap…evem wonder if it was depression, I finally feel im doing something. Even thought about selling cards to businesses.
come to think of it , even if its not mania it doesn’t feel normal!
And I’m not even making sense. 
When I was into music production I was that much absorbed by it. Maybe it’s a personality trait…
Sounds like you’re a bit obsessed with your new hobby! 
You make sense to me. I deal with similar issues. Mine is OCD, according to a pdoc and a therapist. I can’t sleep when I get all caught up in this because I can’t stop my mind from dwelling on it. It’s miserable. So, so miserable. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this.
It’s tricky cos I enjoy it, but my bank balance isn’t enjoying this at the moment lol plus it’s hard to explain I enjoy it but can’t turn off the obsession.
Yep.
And I don’t know if yours is the same as mine, but mine usually reaches a peak when something is going on with my MI. So just in case, maybe be aware of that as a possibility?
Passion for something is a good thing. Can you set a timer for the amount you devote to the cards then switch to something else for a while? 
Yes I am and I can’t switch it off, which is annoying cos if I could maybe these. hobbies would last long.
I think its cos I come out of depression but then again I can’t even tell if it was depression… I had no interest in hobbies, all I did was stay at home and worry all day every day…
I will keep an eye incase it is mania, I will try to keep check on what I’m spending and get my mum and partner to help me make spending decisions.
Hmmm… maybe having too many high expectations about how I can make enough to live on with card making is something to worry about.
If I know that I want something, it takes me mere seconds to purchase it. Hubby could get up for a quick bathroom break, and come back to me having bought four items worth a couple of thousand dollars. It gets bad. Definitely curb your expectations. Can it be something you do for fun and any income could be a happy bonus?
I was initially planning to contact small businesses like cake shops but it never ends well me trying to make a business. I am banned from Etsy cos I open and close shops before anything even sells. I change hobbies that quickly. there I said it its embarrassing I even got banned.
I will try to do this. But once I get obsessed I am going to put blood and sweat into these crafts without taking proper breaks its like I work full time.
Sorry to hear you got banned from Etsy. Have you ever read about how to start a business? Maybe you couldn’t pull it off because you lacked a plan? I don’t know though. I don’t know anything about you. Anyways, there are some great “for Dummies” books on Amazon. Even a 5-in-1 book for starting a business:
Starting & Running a Small Business For… by Dagys, Andrew (amazon.ca)
Thank you… the trouble is as soon as I get into the business mode I lose interest in the hobby… so I’m gonna try not to go down that path. maybe a part-time is better for me.
Atleast I’m not doing anything too destructive to me, I can get help to manage my money, thanks all… for listening 
i spend impulsively on video games, before that it was musical instruments and gear, and before that it was comics. it seems the only way i can stop spending money is if i lose all my motivation towards the hobby