I’ve noticed I’ve developed a fear surrounding really using my brain to really thinking about things. Whenever I do, I get this pressure in my head and it seems like my thoughts are stronger and more readily available to others. Also I notice more synchronicities and my magical thinking becomes much more present. It makes me sad because I feel like I can’t really put my mind to something without either disturbing others or having privacy within my own mind. What a strange illness.
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you sound unstable…I would tell your pdoc about this and see what med changes you can do.
Take it easy. You’ve just come out of hospital. It can take a while for the dust to settle. You shouldn’t be so hard on yourself, you’re doing well.
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yeah, take it easy, you will have to adjust with coming out of hospital, hope your med(s) are working ok 
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I’ve been on a lot of AP’s, the list of ones to try is only getting shorter. Most of them don’t work for me and have side effects that make taking them pretty much as bad as not taking anything. I’m not that unstable, it’s just that I have a some delusions that have been prevalent for a while. I appreciate your concern though.
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Thinking about everything or only some things?
What sort of pressure? Like a headache?
Like if I want to really concentrate on something, I get this pressure in my head like all my thoughts are trying to break out. It’s also the reason I don’t meditate anymore. I can induce the pressure at will too. It’s weird.
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