I took a lot of time to think and got some.new perspective in the hospital. Realized I’m more blessed than I allowed myself to feel because I was so focused on my losses.
I was so focused on the car accident, the falling out with my mom, some issues between me and my partner that have now resolved, my new health issues, my money issues… It was a lot. Still is.
But here’s the thing. I’m engaged to get married next year to one of the most amazing human ive ever met. We had a major hiccup a couple months back but we came out stronger than ever. It opened up our communications more than ever.
I have a handful of amazing friends. I just need to make more effort to hang out.
I CAN work on some level and that’s a lot more than most people in my shoes. It’s not about me, its jsut luck I think. I am hard headed though and willing to do anything to support my animals and my independence.
And yeah I am independent.
I know who I am. Thats more than I could have said 10 or even 5 years ago.
I left an abusive relationship 4 years ago and I’m still proud of that. I was in love. It was hard to leave.
I have a degree in philosophy. My intellect is still there … mostly. Heh
I have my own house. I pay my own rent. I have a car and somewhat afford the payments at least. I can drive most of the time (when symptoms are controlled). I have a house full of amazing pets that I can’t live without.
Gosh I kind of have been craving going for runs and exercising too. I’ve got goals.