I think people are secretly plotting to make me happy.
That actually has a name but I can’t find it now
Pronoia is a neologism that is defined as the opposite state of mind to paranoia: having the sense that there is a conspiracy that exists to help the person. It is also used to describe a philosophy that the world is set up to secretly benefit people.
Edit:according to google!
"Y’all got on this boat for different reasons, but y’all come to the same place. So now I’m asking more of you than I have before. Maybe all.
Sure as I know anything, I know this: they will try again. Maybe on another world, maybe on this very ground swept clean. A year from now, ten? They’ll swing back to the belief that they can make people… better. And I do not hold to that. So no more runnin’. I aim to misbehave." ~ Captain Malcom Reynolds
Pixel
“Apocolypse Now”? I don’t get the reference.
The film Serenity by Joss Whedon. It’s the movie that wrapped-up the ill-fated, but very popular Firefly TV series:
Pixel.
When i was having delusions it felt like something big would happen, neither bad or good, just my fate and i was OK with it
I will call it anoia

take care 
I actively want you to be happy, Nick.
All my plotting is half a continent away from you, so it may take some time before any effects reach you.
Who thought up that load of horse â– â– â– â– ?