I haven’t seen her for a while and it’s justified. Everyone I come here 5-10 people are being hospitalized. The police have to come get a couple of couple of them because they don’t see why they are being sent to inpatient. Not sure if she is paid for how many people she hospitalized but I’m tired of it. I honestly can’t tell her how I feel because even when I’m doing great life is going good she swears I need to be hospitalized. I have a friend who sees her who came to get help for depression, she wasn’t suicidal or endangering herself but she was hospitalized on the fact that she can’t trust what her patients tell her.
GET A NEW JOB IF YOU CAN’T TRUST US.
I remember you recently went off meds and now it looks like your posts are becoming disorganised. Maybe it’s time to go back on them or at least talk to a psychiatrist. You don’t sound ok.
That went better than expected…
I’m fine:D
I told her I’m not going to take medication anymore she said so be it in some words.
I’m going on with my life!
OK, I’ve been there, done that bought the tee shirt. Hope it goes better for you than it did for me.
Edit: I didn’t listen to anybody either.
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Am I from another planet cause i really can’t understand why are people coming off the meds if they’re doing good on it. Why should anyone suffer if they don’t need to?
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I think there is a mentality in the mental health system, just as in any beauracracy, that if you want something it must be bad for you. If you wanted to go to the hospital she probably wouldn’t let you.
I skip a dose occasionally when I need a little more intensity, a little more strength. It’s hard not to resent AP’s because they diminish us in several different ways. A lot of the AP’s, especially the typicals, turn your world very gray. You’re not suffering from symptoms, but you’re not enjoying life very much either.
The meds come with their own suffering vis-a-vis side effects:
- Increased appetite and weight gain
- Lethargy
- Sexual dysfunction
- Slowed or disordered thinking
- Tremors / shaking
- Restlessness
- The feeling of part of your soul being numbed
Not all meds cause all of the above, but even the good meds have a sucky side. Takes a lot of willpower for me not to pitch that damned pill bottle some days, mainly because I now know just what kind of crap sandwich I’ll wind up dining on if I do. That’s enough most days.
Pixel.
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Your communication skills in your current posts seem to have gone downhill from your previous posts here. I don’t think you are functioning as well as you believe you are. I hope things work out, but I’ve got a feeling you have some hard times in your very near future. Please reconsider your stance on meds. 
Pixel.
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Yeah i probably don’t know much about an AP’s side effects. I did have an insomnia,restlessness, tremor and i couldn’t cry (that was odd, i remember on my father’s funeral everyone looked strange at me) but mostly all that at the beginning of using a certain medication.
I want to be an improved version of myself not ordinary ‘fabricated with mistake’ one. 
I’m in that exact same boat. I am med compliant… but wow… some mornings… It’s takes a while for me to do what I know I need to.
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I wasn’t doing good on it… but okay.
Eh…
Nothing has changed I’m actually doing better.
I’m just gotten more open and started standing up for myself I thank therapy and my support system for that. If my doctor is fine with me being off of medication I’m sure I’m fine, if it was a problem she would have said something.
Yeah i forgot to say that it’s your decision after all. 
I wish you luck with it. I’ve had doctors honour my requests to go off meds before and things didn’t always come up roses.
Pixel.
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