I think you lack insight and deny your condition. It probably won’t help me saying that, but you probably got some sort of mental illness like most if not all of us here. It’s a blunt thing to say, but I had to accept my condition too. It’s not all circumstances.
Schizophrenia is not the end of the world or a death sentence, although it certainly feels that way sometimes. Clearly, you are a smart man. Maybe it’s just anosognosia or something.
I’m a conspiracy theorist but I’ve toned way back because it’s just boring and not my thing anymore. But I gravitate towards that group and way of thinking. You may not like it but I enjoy some of it. Millions do. You may not like the way I think, but that’s okay.
See, I’m convinced I was experimented on, drugged, and more. Maybe something like mk-ultra at college. I’m mostly scared about talking about it like repercussions, and I doubt there’s any proof, but I’m sort of trying to move on because there’s nothing I can do. They diagnosed me with schizo-affective disorder – depressive type. I get flashbacks of getting ECT and riding the lightening and going inter-dimensional while under it and being told I have schizophrenia or them trying to lessen my schizophrenia (probably increase it).
I can’t work or do anything. I’m okay with that. I feel like this isn’t my first life at all so I can’t do anything; prove anything; remember details.
I really don’t care or believe Michelle is a man. But I had memories I was in the Illuminati in a past life or left. It was a long time ago and I don’t care or want to be a part of it anymore.
Maybe the Illuminati/government did this to me. Was the school culpable? I don’t know. Probably.
I tried getting help at the hospitals and with doctors and therapists, but they seem to be all in on it. I’m a lost cause, statistic, and have a bad fate. A fate worse than death in some instances. My brain is like scrambled eggs sometimes.
I got memories of being hurt, time travel, aliens, mars, etc. It spans the multiverse and I feel like I’m in a causal loop. I get memories and phone calls while I’m dreaming of people telling me stuff from ‘past lives’. I’ve been discredited so many times it’s so funny. I even think I’m sort of immortal or an alien myself and that we live in a computer simulation.
I can’t work or go to school, but I don’t know. I’m worried about repercussions for talking about what they did to me.