After she rushed me to the hospital when I overdosed on pain killers. My biggest regret.
You were my strength that night
I shouldn’t have
Placed that burden on you.
I shouldn’t have
Let you see me that way.
I shouldn’t have.
If i could take it all back
I would
A thousand times
A million times.
I know you were scared
Even though you appeared
So very strong
So together
And i was flailing
And drowning
In my own sadness
No not sadness
In my own self pity.
I am so ashamed
I am humbled by your forgiveness
I know
I’m the one
Who should have been strong
Who should have been the adult.
It happened
And no amount of sorrys
Can make you forget
Can make me forgive me.
I am the mother
You are the child
And no matter how mature you are
I should be the one who’s there for you.
All i can do
Is work on becoming
The best i can be.
And in doing that
You can grow into
The best you can be.