I had to up my geodon twice and add buspar just to try to get on an even level. And it isn’t ■■■■■■■ working. I really tried, but this is just way too much stress for me. I’m really sad to leave the special ed field, but I think the most I can handle right now is a low key job in a bakery. Hopefully some of the bakeries around me want me. I feel like such a failure right now, but it’s not good for the kids to have me in charge of their case management right now. I just can’t keep everything in order. Someone tell me it’s okay to admit defeat.
there is no defeat in life…we just choose to fight another day.
when you go into battle and find the opposing army has more people and spaceships 
…the wise retreat. 
you are wise.
take care 
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It is what it is. It’s a step back which needs to be done. You probably did your best at your job while you were there. You probably accomplished a lot for someone who has schizophrenia, now you have to do what is necessary. There’s no shame in stepping down, we all have to make sacrifices sometimes. It’s not your fault so don’t beat yourself up over it. I don’t look at your situation like you’re a failure, I look at it like you’re just making a necessary adjustment due to a serious disease. Be proud of the memories you have of helping people. Good luck.
For people like us life is what it is.
I love baking in my time off.
I probably couldn’t do it professionally but I’m sure that you will prosper at it.
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I worked in a bakery for five years all through college, so I think I should have enough experience to get a job. I just have trouble thinking of my life from the reference point of, “for a schizophrenic person.” But that is sadly the reality, and I guess I might as well admit it.
It may not apply in their situation but I had a couple jobs that were going badly…I liked them at first but things got messed up, the workers, what the companies were doing to the environment, and to peoples health and safety…big mess. So rather than retreat (quit) and not be able to get unemployment, I became a whistleblower, got medical records, pictures, testimony, and reported all the violations going on…so I was able to leave the job and get a settlement i could survive on for the next year or so. At first I just wanted to run but then Yoda told me ‘You run, no money you have. Fight quietly from inside you do, be able to live you will.’
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good on you that takes courage…yoda was right… 
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yoda may be a jedi…but he is pretty smart .
take care
( dark sith trys to open milk carton !?! )
That’s how I look at things sometimes but it doesn’t mean that YOU have to look at things like that.
Well, it could help me make my goals more attainable. Right now I get too ambitious in ways I can’t live up to.
I don’t think that having your sz affliction as a reference point is helpful to you at all because it might make a “allowance” for the symptoms that will alienate from the world.
Myself? I am just straight up weird prolly because sz but I’m definitely NOT going to start acting normal according to my feelings when I leave my apartment.
I’m thinking about leaving my job also even though I’ve only been there less than a month.
My affliction makes me think that people around me can hear my thoughts and a lot of them are not positive.
So they (my thoughts) may be making the quality of life lower for those around me.
But we’ll see… Tomorrow is a staff meeting and I guess I’m part of the staff so if I’m correct and they have half a brain among them they will tell me.
That’s not real. No one can read your mind or hear your thoughts. I struggle with that too. You have every right to do any job you can handle. If you can act normal enough to do what is asked of you and you can get along with most of your co-workers then that is enough. I worked at a major department store for 4 years, from about 2005 to 2009. We had a break room that most people took their breaks in. In four years I was literally almost silent on every break and at lunch. Some people tried to get me to talk but I only talked to a couple people. But I did my job and didn’t cause trouble so nobody bugged me or said anything.
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Thanks nick, I feel better and really appreciate your advice.
Good. I wasn’t the best worker at that job and I wasn’t the worst but I did my best and that was enough. I ended up getting fired after four years but so what? I just went out and got another job and I’ve been at it for 5 years now. A few failures in the workforce does not define you. Now I get told often that I’m a good worker! Go figure, lol.
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Discern right side of milk carton you must. Pull corners with Force you do, and open it will…
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you are really funny…
you have mastered fluent ’ jedi ’ .
take care
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Simply put… DUDE MAN!!! Don’t quite you’re job.
From Darth Yoda master I did. Converted to Light, he was.
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I left a many of good jobs due to paranoia.
It isn’t paranoia or anything that is making me leave. It is just very unorganized and causing me a lot of anxiety. I recently got a serious concussion from one of my students, and trying to concentrate on the paperwork hurts my brain. The anxiety over not having the paperwork done properly makes me unable to sleep at night, and meanwhile I’m falling further behind and my students are paying the price. It’s just not fair to anyone. I can work in a bakery. I’m good at that job. I worked in one all through college. I was happy there and there was no paperwork.