That’s your illness talking @Sardonic. Your illness makes you think you can’t trust anyone. But, really, you can’t trust your illness. Remember, your pdoc you can trust. He/she is only trying to help you, please remember that.
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That’s not true. I love you and accept you and I’m sure there are lots of others here that feel the same way. You are very welcome here at Sz.com/forums.
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I appreciate your help but I’m not sure I’m gonna make it much longer.
Are you thinking about suicide @Sardonic ?
Hello? @Sardonic?
I am sure you are going to make it @Sardonic !
You are a strong person!
You have immense reserves of willpower and resilience and persistence.
You have to try to resist these intrusive thoughts.
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Yes!!! Positivity!! Thank you!!!
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You don’t have to be good enough. Just be you. Everyone on this forum understands sz/sza.
Yes @SkinnyMe I am considering suicide. But my mom called me and she says she loves me but… I think I see top much when I look at the world. I don’t know what world everyone else is living in but it’s not mine I can tell you that.
I can’t make anymore posts
no don’t call the mods please they will be angry and get mad at me
Is your mom there with you?
@Ninjastar. We need suicide prevention info
If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.
International suicide hotlines:
http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
http://www.suicidestop.com/suicide_prevention_chat_online.html
Suicide hotlines in the U.S.:
https://afsp.org/find-support/
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org
As a side note, we mods don’t hate you. We worry about you a lot, because you seem to be very sick. But that’s why this site exists, so people like you can get help and support.
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@Ninjastar really is that true I thought you all hated me. I’m scared guys really scared. The they in my mind will hurt me if/when they escape. They say they will escape. It feels like everyone in the world wants to hurt me or trick me.
I can’t speak for anyone other than myself. I do not hate you. I like you a lot. And everyone else posting on here is saying the same thing.
If you’re still feeling suicidal, please look at the links that ninjastar posted. Hang in there!
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I keep having this thought run through my mind which is like “it’s all part of the game” and “they’re part of the game.” I’m so angry I feel alone.
The point of the game is to be yourself, if you want to look at life as a game. It’s not though. Life is here for us to learn to love and enjoy.
<3
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I used to say “enjoy the ride” but now I can’t enjoy it. It feels like this isn’t real. I don’t know what’s real. Thank you @anon19199396
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Right now maybe you should focus on a lot of people caring about you and just consider that maybe you’re having a symptom spike so that’s why things feel weird. It’ll pass with treatment and meds, but for now, focus on good stuff. It helps, Circle.
okay i will focus on good things
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We really don’t hate you. It would be ridiculous of us to hate you for struggling with delusions. I hope you feel better soon.
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thank you 
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