I have to learn how to be sociable

I’m like an untamed animal. I don’t vocalize negative remarks anymore, but I still think of smacking people around as soon as they are in my way for any reason. Just don’t call it “giving” to be sociable because that is a trigger word for me. I heard too much about doing things for people just to be nice. I got taken advantage of. I also need courage about speaking up. There’s a balance to living and being social.