I had a traumatic seizure

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I’m doing much better now, mentally emotionally physically. But I keep thinking about my first seizure. Me and my bf laid down to go to sleep and my brain went so haywire. My eyes darted back and forwards and I felt my muscles tense up harder than ever before. I started hyperventilating incredibly fast. I don’t know what my body was doing besides my arms started violently shaking for a while. My bf thought I was just having a bad panic attack and I thought I was catatonic.

Then I couldn’t move and my bf fell asleep thinking I had fallen asleep too I think. I heard a man walk in slowly, fhe hat man came in. He had a gasoline can and he poured it slowly around the edges of the bed. He said youre going to die ■■■■■. And lit the room on fire. I heard demons in the walls chanting it’s your turn it’s your turn.

My next seizure I didn’t hallucinated but I remember thinking oh, I’m dying, I’m finally dying, thank god please let me die, this is so peaceful.

I’m ■■■■■■ up

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Wow! Do you have epilepsy have you had an eeg? im sorry you’re going through this.

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It doesn’t sound like your new psychiatric meds are doing you any favours… You might need to change them.

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Did your doctor say these were seizures?

I remember your post about the ER but do not remember the details.

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I haven’t had an EEG, I don’t know if I have epilepsy, I haven’t been given any true answers just possibilities

They said it could be seizures but me and Rick have figured out it definitely is. I haven’t had any in a couple days so that’s good

The psychiatrist changed my meds in the er. They think the cymbalta my gp put me on despite me saying I had bipolar caused a bipolar episode plus stress and PTSD trigger caused physical issues, including seizures and subsequent paralysis. I failed the mental status exam and thought Obama was president . I couldn’t walk well at all, sometimes my whole body was paralyzed after a seizure. Sometimes I get them while walking and almost have fallen over but people catch me.

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Sounds like you need a lot more diagnostics and testing.

Am I wrong in thinking that issues with your boyfriend triggered a lot of this?

I’ve been absent from the forum for a bit and noticed you talked about having some relationship issues, then suddenly and onslaught of physical/mental issues.

But I may have missed details.

Do you think it’s related?

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Yes it is related. I was groomed and cheated on by an adult when I was a child, and my boyfriend cheated on me and we had a big argument. I drove four hours to go see him in person and talk about things, but I saw how bad off he was mentally himself, and I remember my brain ping ponging how confusing these emotions were to be so hurt by someone and still want to put their needs before my own.

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I would put some distance there.

I’m separated from my husband right now and it’s difficult.

Him being mentally unwell gives him no excuse to cheat.

It seems being around him is triggering further issues with your mental health.

Additionally, from experience, when people get cornered by their own shitty actions,

Some sort of medical issue is very easy to hide behind.

It’s a common tactic.

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He’s not hiding at least, he’s owning up to it and doing everything he can to fix it. He has been in an episode for a while now though so I don’t think he was trying to fake anything with it but I know people do that

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Please make an appointment with a neurologist for a work up to be safe.

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