Two years ago I was a mess, last year I was depressed out of my mind. Been through a lot these past few years but my mental health is sharp.
My memory is getting better, my focus is better. I can hold my sobriety although alcohol will always be difficult to deal with, I have no need for drugs.
Last episode I had I could rationalize myself out of it.
Some days are harder than others of course. And still, the mood swings are always present, but I’m feeling happy like I never been.
It can always go sour, it can always get worse. But the coping skills are here, I developed good insight, and a lot of this is thanks to this forum and the support from the people here.
You’re all special and I never feel I’m completely alone with you all.
So, thank you for being here and for all your advice this last year, it means so much.
Hopefully I can say to others that aren’t feeling so well that things can get better, a lot better. I was at the bottom of the pit and I clawed myself out of it. I thought I would always be crazy, turns out sanity is my friend now. Never give up!
I love that because it focuses on what I need to work on the most.
My greatest breakthrough was learning that the illness doesn’t always feel aversive. Rather, it makes itself appealing. (I put that in bold so I can fathom the truth of it better.) But even during those times when the illness feels so ‘exciting’, sanity is always what I want even more. “Sure, this crazy reality feels fun, but I’d much rather have the normal life I used to have.”
You’re a favorite of mine here, much thanks. I know the future holds even more for us.
I could believe my psychosis being well because I never believed I had it or it was an issue in the first place. But I can’t believe how happy I’ve been. Also can’t believe how much my anxiety has improved either.
i believe i have the opposite to schiz/psychosis the past 6 years…whatever the heart feels you can have the polar opposite, Example…so i felt sadness now im enjoying the opposite…you can conjur these feelings from one’s desire
So happy for you Minnii wish you all the best, I will always remember your input when in distress I found this forum in seek of support. Thank you and hopefully your life will pay you for your great deeds. Good luck.
Do all you can to stay in this happy place. I’ve found that I can be in just as big a danger when things are good as when they are bad. I think, “Just one little drink won’t hurt.”