I am struggling

i have schizoaffective disorder and ocd. I am on perphenazine and a few others. before I say this I am not paranoid. people have been calling me names everywhere I go. store bus moms. because of it I have grown suicidal worrying about whatever petty name someone calls me because it is causing internal voices. I feel like nothings going to get better. I try so hard to get better but feel like a failure. I don’t want to go to a ward but may have to.

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Welcome to the forum @roxanna. I’m sorry that you are struggling with this. It sounds like auditory hallucinations.

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You are just experiencing hallucinations. This is a medication problem- you need to tell your psychiatrist about this and tell them if you feel suicidal. There is no shame is seeking help, even my arrogant punk ass finally sought professional help when it just became too much to deal with using whiskey.

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