I talked on the phone to a friend with depression from the hospital. in the beginning it was nice but then my voice got fake, ive noticed that. I dont appreciate that. maybe, I will scare some people being like this. is this a delusion of mine? oh boy, I went deep with all my analyzing and thoughts…
I used to be like that too. Never knowing what to say and feeling fake like maybe I really didn’t care. Now, it’s about being pleasant. How is your day, how is the weather, what are you going to do this weekend how was your week. I am a waitress and I used to hate these conversations but now I realize they make people happy.
Honestly Feel L(Y)Ke e(Y)e Don’t Belong Here … ,
Soz Naught Looking for Anything … ,
but About Being (OR) Feeling Fake … ,
e(Y)e Tell My Voices Sometimes (OR) Saye , “sorry i’m not trying to sound fake” … ,
L(Y)Ke it’s Obvious in my Voice … ,
e(Y)e Haven’t Had Much Conversation (other than my therapist) Lately , and in those Convo’s e(Y)e Can Explain my Body Movements and WHY it is e(Y)e am Saying tha Things e(Y)e am Saying … ,
in “real” Life Most of us Can’t do that , , ,
Soz in Advance if Everything You Jus Read Was Pointless … ,
Jus Felt L(Y)Ke e(Y)e Had to Say it … … …
I frustrate people to tears for the same reason but it’s impossible for me to act out emotions, interests or sentiments
that are not in my heart.
I’ve had many tell me they were going to a funeral for a friend or loved one
and I’d just nod my head and change the subject if I new the griever had others there for them
because I’ve never regarded Death as a ‘bad’ thing for the person who died.