How to take care of my mental health by myself?

Hello everyone. I am new on this forum so excuse me if I chose the wrong category.
I came here to ask for advice. My situation is the following:
I am concerned for my mental health and I am afraid it might have to do with prodromal schizophrenia. I do now know for sure and I am not claiming to have prodromal schizophrenia in any way because I have not seen a doctor about it. The thing about doctors is that I can not go to one now. I must wait for about 10 months because I currently live in an area where there is no affordable mental health support available. In 10 months time I will have moved to a different area where affordable and accessible help will be available. I need to get through the next 10 months.
The reasons why I am concerned are these:

  • I had a delusion as a child that my parents were replaced by people who looked exactly like them
  • at age 16 I had the delusion that I am on a mission on Earth to end poverty once and for all, globally
  • I have recently started getting violent thoughts and anger. For example I might think “I will decapitate you” if someone annoys me in any way (such as bumps into me). The anger bursts are so strong I need to squeeze or kick something to ground myself.
  • I get thoughts like “I want to kill myself” even though I don’t want to kill myself
  • I have at times felt like I was in a dream or I have felt like what was happening was not real
  • I have recently thought that I might be dead and that my life might be an endless loop which I’m stuck in and that this is the afterlife
  • I have disturbing thoughts of people’s faces turning into demons and attacking me and some red lights might look like the eyes of a demon and make me feel scared (even though I do not rationally believe in demons)
  • issues concentrating
    I stumbled upon some article about schizophrenia and the signs listed for early symptoms were surprisingly relatable. I am not asking if you think I might have it because I know only a doctor can tell. As mentioned earlier, I don’t have access to a doctor right now. So my question is, does anyone have advice on how to cope for as long as I have to wait? Are there any activities or vitamins and whatnot that could help? And what should I do when I start having disturbing or violent thoughts?

If you are prodromal you certainly sound like you still have your wits about you enough to seek help. I would share your delusions with a psychiatrist and see what they say.

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As I said in my post, I do not have access to a psychiatrist right now and I have to keep it together by myself for 10 months until I can get help. Thanks for trying to help though.

I think if you feel a delusion coming you can always post it here and wait for the replies, often they’re helpful in dismanteling the delusion into something comprehensible and easy to dismiss.

This site has been of great help to me in that department, often others share the same delusions and by reading their posts I feel much better.

But make sure you end up seeing a psychiatrist anyway, don’t give up on that just because it’s difficult.

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Hi,

You should go and get a full evaluation from an early psychosis center where they can do some neuro testing on your and find out if you do have prodromal psychosis. Be sure to convey what you’ve conveyed here to us and they can tell you more and help you if you need it. They are typically free too.

http://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/early-psychosis-treatment-centers-how-to-get-great-help-for-free/12743

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Its important to get an evaluation quickly - don’t wait 10 months. If you are developing psychosis - getting it early can make all the difference. Go next week - don’t wait 10 months.

The whole reason why these centers (early psychosis treatment centers) are being set up is because its important to get help early - they can even prevent development of sz if they catch it early.

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I don’t have one anywhere near me, I don’t live in the US, I live in eastern Europe. I literally do not have access to a psychiatric clinic.

You mentioned that you are trying to keep it together for 10 months until you can see a psychiatrist. What is going to happen in 10 months that will make it easier for you to get to see a psychiatrist then, and not now?

Why can you see a psychiatrist in 10 months, but not now?

I’m a strong believer in journaling thoughts and experiences. It helps you sort out what’s real and what isn’t. It’s a valuable thing to share with your psychiatrist so he knows what you’re experiencing and when. I don’t do it so much now that I’m mostly stable, but I will make a point of writing things down when I’m going through a rough patch. So, a good journal is a start.

Try to eat healthier if you’re able. Exercise more if you can. Stay busy with healthy activities and hobbies. Socialize as much as you’re able to tolerate (volunteer work is King in my books). Keep your mind busy. Read and learn every day.

Hope this helps.

Pixel.

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“Best practice” suggestions:

  1. Get a copy of this book and read it. Have your family read it, too.
    http://www.amazon.com/Surviving-Schizophrenia-6th-Edition-Family/dp/0062268856

  2. Get properly diagnosed by a board-certified psychopharmacologist who specializes in the psychotic disorders. One can find them at…
    https://psychiatrists.psychologytoday.com/rms/

  3. Work with that p-doc to develop a medication formula that stabilizes your symptoms sufficiently so that you can tackle the psychotherapy that will disentangle your thinking. The best of the therapies for that currently include…
    DBT – http://behavioraltech.org/resources/whatisdbt.cfm
    MBSR – http://www.mindfullivingprograms.com/whatMBSR.php
    ACT – https://contextualscience.org/act
    10 StEP – http://pairadocks.blogspot.com/2015/04/the-10-steps-of-emotion-processing.html

  4. the even newer somatic psychotherapies like…
    MBBT – https://www.newharbinger.com/blog/introduction-mind-body-bridging-i-system
    SEPT – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Somatic_Experiencing
    SMPT – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensorimotor_psychotherapy

  5. or standard CBTs, like…
    REBT – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rational_emotive_behavior_therapy
    Schematherapy – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schema_Therapy
    Learned Optimism – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Learned_optimism
    Standard CBT – http://www.beckinstitute.org/what-is-cognitive-behavioral-therapy/About-CBT/252/

  6. If you need a professional intervention, tell me where you live, and I will get back to you with leads to those services.

Does anyone else know-your family? If you can get some support going, maybe they can help you.
Wishing you the best!

journaling, excersize and meditation all help me a lot. try not to isolate yourself, too. it’s helpful to have someone who can give you a reality check every now and then