Maybe it was at 4 years old when I couldn’t sleep because I was scared of monsters in my room
Maybe when I was 5 I was sure I was losing my hearing
Maybe when I was 7 I believed I was regurgitating my brain because I could swear I was getting stupider
Maybe when I was 10 I found my first cancerous lump on my body, which began 10 years of cancer, finding 30-40 lumps over my body.
In conclusion, I was born with the ‘seeds’ of this disease and something that happened in the womb predisposed me to it.
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I had prodromal symptoms when I was only 15 or 16. I had my first psychotic symptoms at 17. And my first psychotic break at age 23, although I was not hospitalized. I wasn’t hospitalized until I became seriously suicidal at the age of 31.
I still don’t understand how Dr’s can Dx a kid when kids don’t have a firm grasp on what’s real or what’s imagination
@Grundle,
what kind of cancer gives you 30-40 lumps on your body? Where they all over, or more on certain area’s?
How did you get Dx’d?
I had symptoms as a baby,toddler,child and teenager and adult.
What was real …
Right after the doctor slapped my ass. Its been downhill ever since.
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Was 3 years old…my earliest memories are of hallucinating vividly…I also started seeing frightening faces in things. Made my mom take a painting of flowers out my room because of all the “monsters” I saw in it.
5 years old is when I got paranoia…similar to you it started w fear of monsters…which people may say for little kids to fear monsters is normal…what is not normal is the level of terror I had. I had to hide in a different area of my house every night because I was certain if I didn’t hide the monsters would find and kill me. I was very scared of the dark but would lay in the dark in my house behind a couch or under a table because my fear of he monsters was so much stronger. I’d be kept up with panic attacks almost every night…when I did fall asleep I’d have horrific nightmares that someone my age should not have been having…I eventually became delusional and believed I was a werewolf…which some people would say “oh it’s normal for kids to play make believe” but I firmly believed this and my world revolved around it for the next 8 years…that is not normal
That’s all my earliest stuff. I’ve always had problems. Apparently I have major depression w psychotic features even though I developed psychosis way before depression…depression I didn’t start developing symptoms until 10…
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When I was a young boy, not sure how old but under 10 years old, I hallucinated the devil holding a mace in my room when I was awake in bed. It was only visible as if it were an infrared image of him but I saw it. This was unusual because I never really hallucinated after diagnosis except for minor closed eye visuals. I also had a tremendous fear as a child when in the dark that I was going to be hacked up by a serial killer so this could have been a paranoid symptom. However, I wasn’t diagnosed until 18 and remember my mind opening up to psychosis and experiencing my delusions/voices one month before my 18th birthday. It was around the exact same time high school ended for me while during the last year of high school I was using meth on a consistent basis. This, I believe, hastened my psychosis which is really too bad.
It all started when I was about 5 years old.
At that age I experienced paranoia and fear.
Started to have nighttime Hallucinations and Delusions at around 7 years old.
I suffered with severe panic disorder for years starting in childhood.
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That’s the way I see my case. I can look back on how I was in my childhood, and I see the seeds of sz. I guess my first symptom was insomnia at age seven. Then when I was fifteen I started getting hit with this really crushing anxiety. I think I would have become sz no matter what I did.
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I remember literally screaming because I couldn’t sleep as a toddler. As I got older, I would call to my mom over and over to make sure she was awake too… My first hallucinations were at 4, and I recall seeing benign things (they didn’t scare me) such as crawling things on the walls and ceiling regularly. I did think I had special vision.
At puberty, 12-13, it was like a switch flipped and demons started tormenting me, I became self-abusive, became fanatically religious, and started isolating, etc. At 15 I became depressed and suicidal.
Yeah my hallucinations as a child weren’t scary either. They were cool even. The bad stuff came a lot later. Wonder why that is…
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Mine were initially and mostly what I thought were bats and spiders. Big ones! But for whatever reason I thought they were there especially for me. Even the first time, I guess I wasn’t surprised, and I wasn’t scared. I did wonder why my mom put me in a room with bats and spiders. (I was being punished), but ended up thinking they were mine and for me.
It surprises me how clear my memory is of hallucinations, etc, and not so great of real stuff.
Started with a lump in my stomach which turns out was actually my stomach itself
Then there was a lump in my lower side abdomen which turned out to be constipation 
Then my throat, brain, in my gums, knee, lungs, testicle, heart…it was like it made sense as I was so tired I thought the cancer was slowly spreading I believed I had a stronger immune system than other people but the cancer was slowly winning and if I got help they would say there’s nothing they could do for me as I had so many lumps.
When I finally confessed my belief to my mum, I was put out of my misery by my doctor I felt so confused and ashamed.
I told myself I couldn’t believe any of my thoughts ever again.
My best estimate is that I was diagnosed with depression at 20, bipolar at 30, first sever paranoia and voices rarely at 32, full blown psychosis, voices, delusions, the kitchen sink, at 35. I’m 37. Been hospitalized 5 times since 30
Mine was really crazy stuff. I remember seeing the characters in my paintings move and carry out their scenes, I could hear them talking too. I heard men talking in my fan and “fixing” it. I would see little tiny men walking around in the covers. I saw some of the trippy stuff I see now too, like objects swelling and “breathing”. I also heard music.
I didn’t really think anything of it. I think kids just sort of go with whatever happens. I remember thinking the painting stuff was cool. The fan I just assumed my mom had hired people to fix it though I thought it was weird they came over so late. (And not weird that they were inside the fan 
) The swelling of my stuffed animals made me think they were alive since they could breathe, so I always treated my toys very well and scolded my siblings when they were rough with theirs. I think maybe the voices got annoying sometimes because they’d all be chatting so loudly I couldn’t sleep. My mom would find me sleeping in the closet to escape the noise from all my paintings lol. I thought it was cool I could hear music and found if I thought about a song I could actually hear that song. It was like a radio in my head, though the music always sounded rather distant, like it was coming from far away.
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I relate to the visuals in regards to things moving that are not moving. I still have that, but I don’t think it started until my teens.
I agree that kids just think whatever’s happening is normal…
You have clearer memories than I do! That’s detail! 
Yep the funny thing is like you that’s all I really remember about being very young. I have scattered “normal” memories from my regular life but most are about my hallucinations and nightmares and other weird stuff.
How odd is it I can only give a handful or two of actual life memories from age 5 but could tell you almost every nightmare I ever got at that age.
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Someone should study this stuff.
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Around twelve or thirteen I had a paranoid episode about aliens. I thought alien reptilian shapeshifter aliens were after me. I thought they took the shape of my teachers and principal. I couldn’t sleep under a window without blackout curtains because I thought they were watching me from space. One night I was downstairs and I had to beg my sister, while crying, to walk me up stairs because I thought they were up there, she refused to walk me up, but luckily I was crying so loud my parents came down and got me. While this was going on I was always paranoid to go into empty rooms by myself because I thought they would be there. Also throughout my life I always have been very paranoid about ghosts and monsters, so no scary movies for me.
I saw ghosts only once but I felt them often for a while. They appeared as people only with deformed faces and bodies. The seemed to move slightly as if they were wobbly. I think there were 2 or 3 of them outside on my balcony. Needless to say it really freaked me out. I think I watched them for a couple min.