How old were you?

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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Hang in there, @Turquoise. It gets better as long as you work on it.

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I wish I had that perspective. I still really would like to, so thatā€™s something, but I sum people up with one word: dangerous.
I admire your more positive take, @77nick77.

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I had something similar. Lately I canā€™t stop thinking that thereā€™s something in peopleā€™s brains that isnt in mine and Iā€™m going to be saved.

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Thatā€™s what Iā€™m doing! Iā€™m trying to understand things a bit more.

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I love this. It gives me hope. Sometimes Im just really scared.

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Sometimes it seems like things are getting better but then they get worse.

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I was really violent for a little bit of time and had to be placed away from home.

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Iā€™m so happy to hear things got better!

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I use to cut. But i havenā€™t since I was 17 and Iā€™m 23. Though for a year or 2 I would bang my head on metal stuff because I couldnā€™t cut because people were so worried.

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Thanks Hedgehog.

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Iā€™m glad you managed to stop eventually too though, I know how hard it is to break that cycle.

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Ever since I was very young. Probably fifth grade is the earliest. I would at points believe I was the only conscious human, I was god, or I was constantly being watched and monitored. I had my first big psychotic episode when I was 17. Iā€™m 19 now, and things have gotten worse for sure.

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I was 35. Things only got worse when predjudiced people found out

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Damn I feel that. I used to cut but then I stopped because people got worried. I bash the hell out of my head now.

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I thought I could bleed it out of me.

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Iā€™m 23. I started seeing and hearing when I was 12. I thought it was the house. The story gets darker and darker. I was also abused as a kid and neglected. So thatā€™s also a factor. As of 23 one of my most annoying hallucinations are tactile when I hallucinate peeing my pants.

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The very first time I had hallucinations I was 10, but those went away briefly until I moved in with my biological father at 12, when they came back.

Iā€™ve never really had visual hallucinations of the normal sort - mostly I hallucinate when my eyes are closed and Iā€™m laying down. I see all kinds of stuff if I focus, usually death and destruction when I was a kid. Nowadays itā€™s mostly people walking around and waving to me like through a window.

Not to mention the other stuff - just talking about the original symptoms I had as a child*

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It takes effort on my part. But my motivation is that I didnā€™t feel this way for most of my life and it feels too good now to give it up.

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I was 40 & now I will be 63 June 18th.

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12 when my grandpa died. Everyone just thought I was a funny quirky kid. I was pretty angry and manic through teen years. Got misdiagnosed as having depression. Didnā€™t get a proper diagnosis til mid 30s. Iā€™m 49 years old. Every year gets worse and worse.