My psychotic episodes can last anywhere from a few seconds to several months. But, it never completely goes away. It’s always there, lurking underneath. And, it shows up at the most unexpected times.
A month both times, nearly died both times.
■■■■ was really happening, the aliens came, faeries were showing up, shadow people, beings made of light.
And it was 3:00 all of the time, everytime i looked at the clock it was always 3:00.
They were inside of me.
I was taken and drugged.
Umm I do have brief “spasms” of it as you mentioned if I come into contact with something triggering. However my brain usually stays in that state for hours…usually by the next morning I’ll be ok again. Other than that I’ve had episodes lasting weeks, months, and one that lasted over a year. My last “official” episode lasted a couple months and was around a year ago. Failed the classes I was taking (stopped going to class, doing the work), was horrendously paranoid and being constantly harassed and berated by demons to the point where I was becoming suicidal.
I do tend to have mild symptoms even when not in any episode, but they are typically in the background and do not affect my functioning when it’s like that.
A few months ago I thought i may need to be hospitalised again but I got through it with out hospitalisation.
It lasted accutely two weeks where i was just coping and actually was not coping really.
I talked to my self .
“have a cup of tea” " have a shower then crewchette"
Douted on my self and it helped along with meds.
I made a pair of slippers during this time period that i gave to my gym instructor i had back then.
Im really proud of those because i was psychotic when i made them and even had packed my bags ready to go to hospital.
My bags were packed and i had numbers to ambulance and hospital out.
I quit olanzapine and thats when i felt horrid, confused, not coping, overwhelmed etc
I had been off it maybe a month or less .
Then I took just a crumble of it (0.6 mg or so) and a sleeping tablet and the next day i felt better.
So I kept taking olanzapine untill i was given latuda to replace it with.
Its the first time ive ever been prepared to take myself to hospital voluntarily.
All other times i was there against my will.
I did not end up in hospital at all though so im very very happy about that because it saved me lots of drama etc.
Im always a bit mad with various beleifs and thoughts but when i cant cope or get confused or overwhelmed etc it can last a while or get better depends how long it takes.
This improvement happened overnight simply by taking meds again.
What is an episode? Trying to think If I ever had one. Sorry kinda new to this not the illness just knowing what I’m going through
Last year I started hearing voices the said I must kill homosexually oppressed rodeo clowns. I got scared and ended up in jail and was extremely embarrassed. Plus I was being stalked by a former colleague who insisted I try cocaine and now I hear voices and sometimes masturbate constantly. I get the voices and they won’t leave. I am going crazy trying to figure out my mind
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Yeah i have similar experiences. I feel very inoccent as far as the things I’ve done. I’m a good person ecpericeing evil things. It’s very embarrassing at times but stay true to good things and keep faith