I’m a naturally friendly person and I am grateful that I enjoy people (for the most part) and that I can make family, some strangers, you guys and roommates laugh with just the funny stuff that pops into my mind. And get in conversations.
But sometimes I get self-doubts and instead of just making small talk without thinking too much about it like I always do in public, I do get that nagging feeling that it could not last despite evidence to the contrary.
I was at the laundromat just twenty minutes ago and I had that self doubt but as I was waiting on the dryer to finish there was some tattooed dude several feet away, a tough looking character and I noticed he was using a “clothes folding device” that I had never seen anyone use in real life. I watched him for a second and I gave him a friendly look and I asked him, “Is that one of those “made for TV” products?”
He looked at me and laughed and answered yes. It was kind of funny and I thought, “I haven’t lost my touch.” And later on, a cute 35-40 year old woman walked in and was putting her clothes in the washer and I looked at her obviously which I normally don’t do and caught her eye but luckily she just rolled her eyes in a “Yeah, what else is new?” kind of way and didn’t get mad. So I got my confidence back and I decided to do my laundry there 3 times a day, 7 days a week.