I had some friends in high school and we were really tight…
I thought of them as brothers and we hung out for years
What actually happened that I was under aware of is they became ‘bi curious’ and some things happened from tension between us (I have no attraction to men)
They were really forceful trying to get close to me and it was horrible for me
(I don’t hate anyone for their sexuality they just didn’t respect boundaries)
Then my mental illness happened.
Then they had issues about me going to church
Then I got arrested for unrelated things so, in order to avoid prison I had to break contact…
Another thing I’d like to mention is they really didn’t care about my friendship or value it — I just felt I cared more for them than they did me…
Maybe in a way. I think I don’t make attachments the way other people do. I know I don’t communicate as well as I should. I just don’t like to talk. I like things quiet. Talking bothers me. It makes it hard to make and keep friends when you don’t like to talk or listen to someone talk. Friends shcmiends.
these are ■■■■ friends man, people that make use of others for their benefits. they aren’t friends. at least i won’t call them as my real friends. i support breaking off contact from them. job well done. surround yourself with friends that has positive vibes and positive attitude. and not just anyone on the streets.
I got to admit I’m slightly scared of people who experience psychosis. My minds imagination is very wild in that sense. It is one reason why I could not partner up with a person who has experienced psychosis. Unless idk something changes in me.
I can be friends with them but not very very close, like intimate.
people who do not understands this illness, would be scared of it. i had a friend that was like that. i told her of my condition, from that point of pressing enter, never comes back a reply from her.
but an analogy would be of HIV. people who touches the dried blood of a HIV might be scared because they failed to understand that HIV only transmit with watery blood, blood that aren’t dried. it’s not the condition that is scary, but it’s what they imagined it to be that scared them.
I didn’t have many friends in high school because I was prodromal, but the ones I did have kinda steered clear of me after my symptoms peaked. All but one. She was the best friend I ever had.
I had delusions my friends and family wanted to kill me and were actors pretending to love me and getting paid and then I had delusions I was a Muslim and my father was not my father etc and many other delusions and voices etc
I lost some friends because I didn’t work and was a binge drinker and they worked and thought I was a loser.
I lost another load of friends when I became Muslim for a year.
I don’t really have friends as such either anymore.
Most just stopped replying my email.etc
I have my best friend I had who I email once a year or so but she has children is married etc and I wish we were still best friends somehow but I may of wanted to kill her in self defence when I was my sickest but I’m a very peaceful person but she tortured me I believed.
I have friends in spirit I think.
I “feel” them every now and then which is lovely but we have no contact in person.
One is a Muslim who is funny and says I’m his best friend.i thought he was my father once.
Another is my x.
I am happy to have friends in spirit because I truly believe I do.
a true friend CORRECTS you, not CHANGE you. If a so-called friend tries to CHANGE you, then by no means he/she is not a true friend, he/she just wants you to be “normal”.
even though we lived in a world that mostly are liberal but by actual fact, we are not as liberal as you think it is. many are forced into behaving like a “norm”. in a christian family (i am a christian btw), is it liberal to have a mulism family member? It is, but people regards this as something not acceptable (why i used not acceptable, because there are no moral wrongs to it, with no morally wrong doings, this is not defined as wrong/incorrect) it is just unacceptable for a christian family. unacceptable is different from wrong, it’s two different definition. But most people mixed unacceptable with wrong, which doesn’t make any sense to people like us. because we regard these 2 as 2 different things.
I just think that’s as if they think they are superior and better and have a right to do so which they don’t.
I have improved and became a better person.
I will continue to improve.
I am a wanna be catholic.
My boyfriend is catholic.
Before I met him I believed in god and prayed but had more beliefs similar to Deepak Chopra.
I was christened a few years ago but have had difficulties becoming Christian because I don’t want to believe in hell because I think god is more understanding and forgiving and would not allow such a cruel thing.
I believe a bit and want to believe as my boyfriend.
To be united in sacred union with him.
I kind of believe.
I love god but was never a member of any religion mostly.
I don’t want to be a pushover with any of my friends and I don’t actually think I am but I only have friends in spirit as such.
Same thing with me. I think alot of us with sz didn’t socialize much even prior to being diagnosed officially or having our first episodes. I personally always felt awkward around people, I didn’t interact alot with others. Yeah I had one or two friends but that was it. Even now that I’m relatively stable I don’t like going out or meeting new people. The friends I had in school have all moved on with their lives and have careers and a family. That gets me down sometime but I’m really happy for them. What I don’t like is most just drifted away and forgot about me and reati get it they have their lives and I’m not an attention seeker but a little text once in a while just to say hi wouldn’t hurt. I now if the tables were turned I would still check in on them and see how they are doing. The truth is life goes on one just has to learn to deal with it
I’m a great passing hello, how you doing, is yer day working out, etc.
But an ‘actual’ conversation takes too much effort and it feels tiresome forcing words to people blehhhhh I would rather keep 1 friend (my lovely) and keep it casual with everyone else
I lost over 25 friends and a gf I used to hangout with.
Most left me because I stopped talking to them.
I had 800 FB friends, I deleted most of them after SZ, now I have 150 but I only talk to 2-3. I never hangout with anyone anymore though.
Some left me because they couldn’t stand me when I was psychotic like my gf who wanted me to pay half the rent and live with her. I couldn’t work so we left each other.
Once I was psychotic and wrote nonsense on FB, some friends deleted me and some stopped talking to me.
Some also left me because I developped alcohol addiction with SZ. I vomitted on my friends, girls and guys, in bars and clubs many times.
+1 I hanged out with 25+ friends before my SZ.
SZ made me self-isolate and I lost all my friends, I never go out of my parent’s house, they get my meds and food.
