Until you’re afraid of yourself. Like I hear myself say “I’m afraid of (chordy).” It’s disconcerting.
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Yes, I had shown a great deal of aggression in my psychosis. After my psychosis I had to go back to school. And I noticed that people had become frightened of me. Very much to feel because I have never done anything to anyone. I feel responsible.
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I think I made people afraid by saying aggressive things without thought of their affect on others.
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I found a guy on online dating site. He was so relaxed and friendly with me untill i said im mentally ill. And then…he started acting weird. He didnt make any sence. But he continued writing to me and tryed to make it look like he likes me.
My opinion…he only was nice to me after finding out im mentally ill cause he was afraid to tell me that he is afraid of me. He was afraid to admit to himself that he was afraid of me.
I wanna add…sometimes people are afraid to death for no reason.
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i would not take it personal. Everyone have their struggles in life. It may be mental illness or something else.
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Some people are scared of me in the right way. Not for being schizophrenic.
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Do you mean it’s because you can show your authority?
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Uh, I have a temper and tend to get mad at being treated unfairly. And I forget how big I am. The roommate pisses me off. He’s taken to carrying a pocket knife. He told me to scare me I think. But I laughed and told him that if he carries one so will I. It phased him. But I don’t want to carry a knife and the laugh was 1/4 false bravado. But I’m going to tell him I don’t want him carrying a knife in the house. He is not stable and sees demons. I’ve been beaten up before and picked on. I can handle getting punched in the face or kicked but I can’t handle being stabbed while I am sleeping. Oh yeah, I will get in one punch at the least if something happens.
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I have literraly been hip and shouldered in the local supermarket by someone i didnt know, ive been harassed, spoken about without the opportunity to say the truth, people have bullied me over an awful event that was not my fault. I feel that lack of respect is not ok. You cant just go arround assulting ppl you dont know and not explain why or anything, its very confusing.
The answer to the question is no, i have never heard ppl afraid of me. In fact i have very good reason to be afraid of them from experience.
I had an awful temper because i was in a crap relationship where he didnt listen, invalidate me, or commit properly and i waited 9 years, silly me. No more, i get more chilled out each and every day and im really enjoying it, like unwinding a coil
Your living situation is ■■■■■■■ scary!
I can tell when someone has been “informed” about me by the way they respond to me, which is dramatically different than before they were told.
Think it’s the hesitation before they talk that tips me off.
It’s as if they are screening their words to avoid offending me, so they prefer to say very little, agreeing with anything I say, and suddenly remember, that they are in a big hurry to be anywhere I’m not.
Not sure why they need to be informed, or by who,
but lets just say,
if they spend any time around me,
they learn those that have informed them,
are not telling them the whole truth.
Tempus omnia revelat.
Time reveals all.
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or Time heals all wounds = excepting ignorance.
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Well, we liked each other at first but things went south quickly. This guy has killed people. But on my end, I had a choice when I moved in. I could either give up and let the guy walk all over me and spend the last 5 or 10 years I’ve got left on this planet being a 56 year old man who people will say whatever they want to no matter how insulting, OR I could continue what was happening for the prior two years at the group home and try to stand up for my rights. I chose the latter. And it gets scary but I like myself more now than at any other time in my life.
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Wounds leave scars if they’re deep enough.
Time will let you get used to the scar as part of you now, but that’s all time does for wounds.
I also know this statement is true:
“You can’t bury what’s not dead.”
Time won’t kill the things we chose not to deal with, it only kills us.
When I was manic I scared a few people with how quickly I could lose my temper. I’ve chilled out quite a bit since then. The problem I get is that nobody gets my humor, and thinks it’s just part of my illness, double-thinking everything I say.
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