Well I guess I’m still relapsing because the only substance I relapsed on is nicotine and I still have 15 left.
But last night I got home at 9 pm from my walk and I bought a pack of Cheyenne’s and brewed a pot of coffee.
And I chainsmoked and drank coffee till midnight while walking around my apartment with no shirt listening to music.
Sometimes I crave substances
This is probably not a long term solution but I was able to go to bed early despite the stimulants and only had a moderate hangover. But now I’m better.
at least its cigs and coffee and not too hard of drugs, i notice i will go a while without something like nicotine or alcohol and just out of nowhere pick it up again its almost like its out of my control, i dont consider it relapsing being both those things are easy for me to stop and i dont go to the extreme with it
One day i downed half a mickey of vodka within an hour. I just said ef it and yolo.
I was hunched over the toilet after throwing up and saying never again. That was 2 years ago haha
How i started smoking again was when i was over stressed with exams coming up and i went to the store and got my fav pack of cigs, exporta blue, and started chainsmoking for the rush. That was 3 years ago and i’m still smoking, and it sucks when you have no income but your savings.
and I still have 15 left.