Flashbacks

I keep having flashbacks every day, at least 5 times a day. At this point I’m really thinking I need to be hospitalized but I feel like that would never be allowed. The flashbacks are getting serious to the point that I’m having major issues coping with this condition. My doctor is really concerned at this point, and she said to come back earlier than when it usually is. She’s also aware that I’m starving myself at lunch when I have flashbacks at school, as some sort of a way to cope with the flashbacks. My quality of life is really poor because I’m constantly stuck in trauma and discrimination I’ve experienced. As a result I never get better despite efforts to heal myself. I just stay at home and keep it to myself.