Where I am from mental health is not treated well and has a lot of stigma, especially schizophrenia. People think just cause I have schizophrenia it makes me a psychopath. They outcast me and don’t speak to me, when they are forced to talk to me they make it brief. I have some friends but they don’t talk about it with me instead they call me crazy. My parents force me to live in silence telling me if I tell people I will lose things like relationships or job opportunities. I feel I am forced to live in silence, I’ve been so scared to talk about it that I just bottle it up and I have been for years now. Like I even feel bad about talking to people with similar problems. I was already part of another thread since 2013 and I left cause I felt I was a burden. Even here I’m nervous about writing because I feel like a freak all the time. I’ve been trying to express myself more, but deep down I still feel like that freak my parents want me to hide.
No need to feel like a freak here. That’s one of the things I like about this forum, that I can speak of things that I cannot speak of to the people I know in real life, for fear of freaking them out. It may be cliché to say this, but be yourself here, please. 
I just feel the real me isn’t good I have a lot of anger and depression built up from years and years of it. I always feel like giving up. Most of the time I just want to snap and then I can get it out but I know if I do I might hurt someone or myself and I don’t want that to happen.
Hey Danny Boy
The mental health center where I go,
has a poster on the wall
with names of famous people
with schizophrenia
like
Vincent Van Gogh
My mental health center doesn’t have anything about schizophrenia up in fact only things it has up is abuse and addiction things.
Have you thought of a support group and maybe some kind of activities to relieve this tension your talking about. I think posting here might help a bit but maybe thearopy , there’s got to be something you can add to your life to help with this. I helps me just to talk about the stigma with some safe people.
That’s the thing I haven’t heard of any support groups where I live the only therapy groups are ones for patients in hospitals.
No NAMI groups in your area?
Nope I live in Canada
I don’t know where your located but I know of a group that is meeting in Ontario soon
I’m from Atlantic which is about 2-3 provinces away
Danny, do you talk with a doctor on a recurring basis? they can be good friends, sometimes.
I’ll be honest the doctors here don’t give a damn. I’ve already tried to talk to them. I asked him if I could talk to him and his response was “Sorry I’m not that kind of doctor”. Mental health is in a crisis where I live and they don’t do anything about it. It’s so bad that people are leaving the province just to get a doctor.
There’s always an option of starting a small group of like minded people. Not everyone’s comfort zone but could be an option.
I wouldn’t mind an out-of-province doctor, if I only had to see him at least once a week/half-month/month. modern-day technology makes communication really convenient, regardless of distance.
I don’t spend money much, but my mental health is definitely worth investing in.
I couldn’t do it once a week, I don’t have the money to make the trip for an hour appointment.
But believe me it crosses my mind a lot about leaving.
So if he’s a pdoc that’s not his thing they don’t have thearopy people there?
He didn’t tell me there were any he just sent me out the door with another prescription.
You need to ask to see a therapist they let you talk and help you work through all the baggage that we’ve all accumulated . They don’t give you a prescription.