A few weeks ago I was feeling so anxious, panicky, didn’t know how to calm myself, so I took a bunch of ativan. Apparently after I did this I walked to the mall and went into a store and bought something from a yarn shop (Don’t know what I bought). Then I walked into a department store and started throwing clothes around and making piles of them everywhere. I also stole a backpack (Still have it). Someone called the cops on me after that. The next thing I know, I’m in the hospital, in restraints, hooked up to an IV. After that I spent two weeks in the ward.
I know I did a foolish thing like take ativan how it’s not prescribed to me, but has anyone else done something similar? I thought taking too much ativan would just make you “pass out” instead of causing you to do all these shenanigans…
My last blackout was after having taken my usual dose of Xanax not realizing there was to be a keg party later in the evening…the last thing I remember of that night was being descended on by mean people while in line for the bathroom…curling up in the corner with a great dane and that’s where it all went black. The next morning I awoke in my own bed at home not remembering how I got home.
I was always a rather peaceful blackout…never disturbed the peace or anything just tended to get from point A to point B with no memory of it. No though I’ve never blacked out without drinking in addition to pills…how much exactly did you take?
I’m not sure whether I’ve blacked out or not. But apprently I attemted to strangle my little sister when I was fourteen and returned from the state hospital. I also remember singing creepily and speaking in a mix of different languages to my sister, a mix of Japanese, bits of chinese and some latin, I think it was… According to my family, it felt like there was a demon in me, but I realize that whenever I get like that, it’s just how my aura feels…I also once started wailing, according to my older sister, and whenever I tried to read from the bible or book of mormon, I only cried more, saying it was hurting my head and making the voices worse. She actually thought I was possessed XD
Well, I don’t know if not remembering anything for maybe 12 to 72 hours is necessarily a “black out”. But yes, one time I was involuntarily dropped off at one psych ward and the next thing I knew I was in another psych ward wandering around in the dark saying a bunch of things. My roommate said “Shut up!” and “Oh it’s okay, I’m a medium” just came out of my mouth out of no where. So anyway, yeah, I don’t really remember anything of what happened between the one hospital experience and the other, but apparently I was still kind of operational, maybe as a medium, at least part of the time. Weird.
I think blacking out because of psychological reasons is called something else. I have experienced this as well…both long term “black outs” of particular memories as well as recalling memories one day and having no memory of them the next. This is probably in my case due to some sort of dissociation…thats whats been said anyway …but I’ve heard of similar things happening due to psychosis.
