I’m sure i have better things to worry about but a long time ago i woke up from being asleep in the middle of the pavement in the middle of town. I don’t remember how i got there and it was dark and about 10 hours after the last memory - at the time i knew i had been gone for a while i checked mentally to see if i was okay or if something had happened, this made me think i should get back to the ward (I had absconded)
I had black outs from drinking and also from florid schizophrenia. The longest period in which I functioned and have no memory at all was about 36 hours.
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Yeah - i hadn’t had anything to drink at all.
What is the thing about florid schizophrenia ?
I don’t know if it’s a thing for psychosis but i was very psychotic
I was in the mental hospital for two blackouts. I’m sure there was no drinking involved.
J.
I’ve blacked out several times for up to ten hours, but I think everytime involved drinking. But it’s weird because it’s not everytime I drink it’s just random. I was in the hospital last week for one. Somehow functioned for ten hours blacked out but at the end walked into traffic and got knicked by a car lol so yeah bringing that up to my pdoc
blackout with drink doesn’t happen every time you drink but it’s a real sign of alcohol becoming worrying
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I’ve gotten stuck in the corner with psychosis for hours looking for one of my socks. This happens often when I go nuts, also I lose things a lot.
Yeah I’ve totally quit drinking for the most part, unless I’m at a wedding or something. It’s too dangerous for me right now.
I forget a lot of periods of time. I’ve never woken up somewhere random, though. I just forget a lot of time.
Also, the blackouts from drinking don’t help.
I feel this way a lot , there is a lot I can’t remember especially since my first real break happened and a few years they spent getting a medication regimen for me right. I don’t know if I suppressed memories or simply lost them because of brain damage due to the illness and medications.
I have to take notes and stuff if I ever read anything, otherwise I just forget it. I only ever generally remember facts and figures rather than “memories” of my life. It’s strange and annoying to feel like I can’t remember anything.
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I lost a day or so in the hospital, but it slowly came back to me or atleast the highlights. Think it was from them overmedicating me.
I do pretty often, especially when stressed out and delusional. But I dissociate a lot anyway
I’m also forgetful and lose track of time easily. Sometimes I wake up in my bed with no clue on how I made my way there and the hours before. Alcohol might intensify this at night but not for during the reguler day time
I never lose time. It is ironically confusing because I believe I have another life that is being kept from me. I am perpetually baffled about how that could be when I have no lost time.
Yeah. I lose my memory when psychotic . It is scary.
of course.
time doesn’t exist.
not where i come from and where I am.
“time” is contrived
"reality" is fake
ugly
stupid
I could easily burn it all down
but the line will be drawn here
and the cord snapped.
I have dissociated quite a few times in my life. I had an amnesia fugue that lasted 3 weeks and I lost all of that time. They gave me ECT to bring me back to my senses.
I got beaten up by 3 people outside a club and lost about 8 hours. I came to having stitches in my lip having functioned the whole night with no one noticing I had dissociated.
It happens when I am extremely stressed. It all stems from being sexually abused in my childhood that I dissociated my mind from. Those memories are fragmented and distant to me even now. I prefer not to remember in actual fact.
Dissociative Identity disorder (DID) happens often to those who have been severely traumatised in their childhood, Mine isn’t as bad as that, but every time I am under extreme stress I will lose consciousness. It is like being dead, as though I hadn’t existed at all. If I dissociate and never come back that is what it would be like, when in fact it is a survival strategy from the lower brain.
I know the feeling, I feel horrible when someone says “do you remember when…” um no, I barely remember yesterday much less something that happened over 20 years ago. but I can’t tell them that because that would upset them so I try to fake it as much as possible…and when they’re getting suspicious I change conversation
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