If you have a broken bone, you propably don’t feel like an outsider. But Sz kind of makes me feel special in a negative way. When I think about all the people, I sense some kind of karma, how I’m not one of them. This all makes me trying to act up more “normal”. Sz makes me want to convince others how I’m a good guy.
I know I’m a good guy. But being a good guy doesn’t mean you’ll be rewarded by getting healed from Sz.
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I’d rather be a good guy with schizophrenia than a bad guy with schizophrenia. For me, going through hell with schizophrenia but coming out the other end and remaining a good person is one of my major accomplishments, if I may be so modest.
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I do feel separated, yes.
I constantly feel like I have to work extra hard to prove I’m not dumb because I’m so docile due to meds and negative symptoms.
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its to presser out there for me to understand , some are happy some are mad and sad. and to look at the means I have to judge them to my self, that what I have a hard time. I don’t allway’s look first.
Yes, I feel separated,different,hated n attacked by them etc
I don’t like. Wing around people cause of this .
My bf is one of few people I can be with.
I feel very much as you say.
I don’t understand what’s being Sz got to do with being a good, or bad person?
You either are, or you’re not.
I 'be always felt different than most people, probably started around middle school when I realized others didn’t think the same way as me.
Was it a good or bad thing?
No, just different.
Sz doesn’t give one the right to be anything their not going to be anyway.
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“Do you feel separated from the rest of the people?”
if you and I are talking about the same “rest of the people,” then yeah
I’ve always felt separate from other people. I think that’s what led to me struggling with whether or not I’m even a human because I’ve always thought differently than those around me and had different internal experiences.
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Same here. If I don’t struggle with depression I’m okay with it, I think by myself I’m not missing anything or missing out. Though, when suffering from negative emotions / depression it can be quite lonely at times and the thought of having more friends would feel more like a blessing. I’ve really tried hard to fit in and make new friends or picking up old friendship but I realize I just don’t fit anymore. It can also feel like I have to try harder then others that don’t have a mental illness, and actually it is, even though my therapists trying to convince me it’s not by throwing with statistics how many people will eventually have to deal with mental health issues or someone they know. I talked about this subject in therapy a lot and they were like I’m looking for reasons to not make new friends or fit in or I’m looking at it the wrong way but after I explained why I feel separated from people because simply put, I’m different, they also realize that my behavior is quite normal, if we like it or not there is also a big stigma on having schizophrenia, that’s just a fact and I don’t like the feeling that I have to “work” harder for people to like me just because of that. And if I compare myself to “normal” people, I feel like I’m the normal one and they’re the one with issues and their issues are so simplistic that makes me feel like I’m not the one that needs help but they do. So yes, like the thread title explains it well, I feel separated too and most of the time I’m okay with it.
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Sometimes I feel special with sz too. But I keep it hidden. Most of the time I’m just one of the people out there. But other times I feel separate yes. Usually when I am going through a bad patch.
I had a strange opposite to this today, walked around seeing random people and thinking, you’re like me, you’re like me, you’re me, I am like all of you. It felt like being normal again.
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