i am fed up. its been 4 months that I am on Depakote and it messes a lot with my head. I even cant sleep well because of it. I cant think, it kills my emotions. ok, maybe it calms down a bit my anxiety but I dont live still.
I am trying to lower it just to see what will happen. I am bit afraid if my anger returns(one pdoc told me that the anger is an affective symptom)… but I still live like an hermite, nothing changes in my life and I feel worse than a ■■■■…
how is it for you on the mood stabilizers? otherwise, in my illness, I dont have the '‘happy’'mania…
kisses to all
I’m on lithium and I really like it. I take it because I’m schizoaffective bipolar and it really smoothes out the highs and the lows for me. It just makes me really thirsty.
It’s honestly my favorite medication out of the five I take.
If a doctor put you on depakote, then yes, you need it.
but I dont feel anything on it anymore @stellaglow… my pdoc wasn’t insisting that I am on it…
and does your lithium calms down your paranoia?
Unfortunately, I take two antipsychotics at high doses and I still suffer from paranoia and psychosis, so the answer is no.
ok, I see. me,too. we continue to struggle then. ill continue to look for the best meds. I am really sure that Depakote isn’t helping me. it kills all my emotions and my anger is still inside me
If depakote is bothering you so much, is it possible to ask your doctor to switch you to something else? There are a lot of mood stabilizers.
yes, that’s what ill do. I suffer too much on it and its not my Zyprexa, I am sure of it.
I’ve had success with lithium and lamictal. Of the two i prefer lamictal, but both work well for me.
How’s zyprexa working for you? I was on it for over a year and it worked great but I gained 40 pounds so had to switch.
wow guess what, the lowering of the Depakote is not working for me…its not the withdrawal I think like it happens often for us… I couldn’t focus on anything today, I was fearfull to a point that I stopped talking… my soul started to hurt again, yeah… I am still in the optic that some of you here at least do some things in the life. you even succeed to have families. for my mother, I am from the negative schizophrenics plus she doesn’t believe in happiness a lot also… but I cant anymore sit in a coffe with friends, because of my paranoia and my lack of positive emotions… ill irritate others here maybe because I want too much with this illness yes. but I live between 4 walls since 15 years… maybe this was my error, to close myself for the life long ago… so I increase my dosage of Depakote once again. ill just take one pill in the morning and one in the evening, and not 2 pills in the evening like it was for these past months. my ex pdoc was giving my Depakote like this in the past-one pill in the morning and one, in the evening…
@redanne, I dont know how Zyprexa works on me, I am not sure anymore… I dont feel great no but at least I am on my feet. maybe it helps a bit with my fears. I gained 30 kilos on all my meds though…
I’m on lithium because I’m schizoaffective bipolar. I like it, no side effects that I’ve noticed and it really smooths out my emotions.
me, I have the impression that I cant think at all on a lot of the aspects of life…I feel dumb… my mom says that I think but I dont find it at all 
. my diagnosis is paranoid schizophrenia with negative symptoms…