I had the worst suicidal depression ever, but after three weeks in the best open ward with a kind staff, interesting patients i talked a lot with, im discharged and feeling better thanks to MAO-inhibitor.
The only symptom I have left is a heavy feeling in my body, and fatigue. It’s called “leaden paralysis.”’ It bothers me very much, but at least the suicidal ideation is gone.
“Leaden paralysis is defined as feeling heavy, leaden, or weighted down, usually in the arms or legs. This sensation is generally present for at least an hour a day but often lasts for many hours at a time”