Depersonalization can consist of a detachment within the self, regarding one’s mind or body, or being a detached observer of oneself. Subjects feel they have changed and that the world has become vague, dreamlike, less real, lacking in significance or being outside reality while looking in.
Has anyone ever or do you deal with depersonalization/derealization? I came down with a bad case of it when I was 16 or so. It was after I started using marijuana frequently and didn’t go away until well into my 30’s. I used to say it felt like feeling “a million miles away” inside my own mind, or I’d just tell people I felt very “out of it”. Very disconnected feeling and at the worst of times it was as if I’d forgotten who I really was at the core of it. Very scary. It made being around or talking to friends very difficult back then and heightened my anxiety disorder.
I had extreme depersonalization during the few years before my sz diagnosis. I told my family Dr that I dont feel real, my friends and the environment dont feel real. I told him about my voice hallucinations too. He said its just stress. He was wrong as it ended with a suicide attempt and ending up in the emergency where I was seen by a psychiatrist after a few hours who diagnosed me with Psychosis.
I’ve had depersonalisation-derealisation since some time in my teens (I’m in my early 40s now). It peaked some time between 2000 and 2005 (psychosis happened in late 2009). I’m used to it now, so much that I don’t notice it unless I try.
Mine was severe 24/7 for 6+ years. Every day and every second. I mainly had derealization, which is different. Only had a few cases of depersonalization. Scary stuff.
I personally think that there’s a psychotic version of this and a non psychotic version. I suffer bad from the non psychotic version of it when I get it. Just feel detached from my self and everything my environment becomes different too. I just feel like I lose my sense of self. Its friggin horrid. But yes, it’s not the end of the world, I guess…
It’s something I experience often, but I guess it’s become second nature so I can’t really tell when I have it or not. I’m sort of giving up on reality.
24/7 I feel like I’m in a dream. The only reason I know I’m not asleep dreaming is because when I’m asleep dreaming the dreams are either nightmares or very weird. I’ve been having dreams I’m in the hospital for months now.
I forget to show affection to my child because I don’t feel like I’m actually living… It feels so dreamlike that I probably life is a dream.