I know I don’t often talk about it, but I really miss my dad. I don’t know if I ever really got over it. I don’t know if anyone ever does. I mostly learned to just not think about it, and shut down any road of thinking that leads me back down this path. But sometimes, the feelings just break through anyways. It’s been nearly ten years and the pain is still the same.
He was really great. During his calling hours, police had to come and direct traffic. It was a horrible blizzard and people were still packing in to the funeral home. They had to have people wait in the embalming room, because they ran out of places to put everybody. It was supposed to last two hours. It lasted six. Someone brought us kids food, and we hid in a storage closet to eat and escape for a few minutes. My childhood ended there. From that moment on I was a single mother with two teenage kids and a forty-year-old dependent.
I know others are experiencing grief right now, especially @anon80629714 and @jukebox. If you guys ever want to talk, well, please do. Sometimes not talking is worse.
I had a lot of grief after my father died of heart stroke and before it happened we didn’t talk for 20 days. Over some stupid thing. I’m sure I talked about it here.
I still feel very negative when I think about him ( it was four yrs ago) so I tend to suppress any memory of him…which is sad.
He had my photo on the display of his phone when he died.
You had an amazing dad hold on to the memories through which he lives on. Yesterday my mum found a folder. It had a stack of certificates I got from primary and high school. I had no idea how proud he was of me.
Lost dad and two members of my offline support group committed suicide. Shortly after found out my Aunt was dying of skin cancer. Karen’s suicide was 5 years ago been the catalyst of anniversary triggers due to a extremely complicated grief cycle.
Wandering around getting lost in all the therapies. I managed some grief counseling. Most of is as most say remember the good times. We tend to get a bit lost in the last moments, unresolved issues. We just get caught up in the pain.
In regards to trigger anniversaries my tdocs have been awesome in helping me through it all even after 5 years.
@Ninjastar thank you for thinking of me…my grief has subsided because I realized my dad is going to Heaven, so that makes me feel better…my friend I lost last week in a car wreck grieves me because I don’t think he went to Heaven but he was a really sweet guy so I keep praying for him to make it to Heaven. He wasn’t a God fearing man though.