I dont want an account anymore and this has become a drug that only seems to hurt me can a moderator please delete my account so i cant come back on. @Moonbeam @anon9798425 @Rhubot @Ninjastar @SzAdmin.
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Please just delete my account. Someone
It has bacome a drug for me too, but in the past I’ve been able to take breaks. Maybe just take a break? You’ll want to come back at some point when things get rough. Many of us need the forum during those hard times.
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I dont want to talk to anyone anymore. I want to escape all 7.6 billion of everyone. I need to get away. I need to be alone for the rest of my time on this earth. I just need peace
@Kazuma, I don’t want to see you go. You’re a great person. If you need a break for a bit, I can suspend your account for a while. But all anonymizations have to be handled directly by @SzAdmin now.
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I dont care anymore. I just want to teleport to some other planet away from everyone. My whole life ive been treated as the villain and i want to get away from it all. I just want to get away from people and their thoughts. I just need to be alone. Cause theres no point in having contact with the outside world if i can never connect. When i always feel like im the bad guy. Everything gets worse when im around other people and its my fault cause im a â– â– â– â– person and i deserve this existence. Words from my brain are pointless. I just dont want to be around people or listen to anything because its always going to be me who gets screwed in the end. And its always gonna be my fault. If theres an afterlife everyone is going to point at me and laugh.
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Is someone here making you feel that way? Flag them for me. I don’t see everything. You are an amazing, sweet, and severely depressed guy, and I don’t want you to be hurting so badly.
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Its not specifically anyone on this forum. Its not specifically anyone in this life. Its everyone. My own downfall is trusting that other people have my back or love me. I just need to get away from Earth and everyone on it. Cause no matter who i meet or see or who i interact with ill always screw it all up. The earth would be a much better place without me. And im too scared to die so im pretty much trapped here until life forces my death upon me. I know this is my hell. I know that everyone is laughing at me. No matter what i do or where i go there will always be someone to poke me. And its my fault
My life would be worse if you weren’t a part of it. I just saw that you got fired. I’m sorry. I’ve been fired for my disability before, and it hurts. But that is not a reflection of your value as a person. It just means that employer wasn’t the right fit for you.
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It doesnt feel like anyone is the right fit for me. Anytime i start trusting someone i always have the though that their programmed to seduce me into thinking its alright when it never is. Words cant even describe exactly what im going through because im always going to be trapped. Maybe im just to far from reality. Maybe my own perceptions about people are wrong and are delusions. But all the pills all the medicine never helps the fact that im trapped with the whole world. I keep thinking that im gonna be something important one day. That my words might land with the masses but at the same time i know im programmed to feel that way just for me to experience more pain
But i guess dont delete my account because i know ill regret it later. My life feels like this catch 22. Anything i do or say is gonna be the wrong choice
Things suck right now. Things have been really hard for you for a long time. But I swear it can get better. I’ve had schizophrenia for fourteen years, and I didn’t find a medicine that worked until four years ago. For ten years of my life, I was living in hell. I ended up homeless, heavily abusing alcohol, and I didn’t have anyone I could turn to. But if you keep trying, eventually you’ll find something that works for you. I know an online support network isn’t a decent substitute for an in-person one, but we care about you here. We want to be here for you.
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Rabbit, you’re one of the people here with a special place in my heart. I hope you remember that, even if we haven’t chatted much recently. We depressives have got to stick together!
I hope the 22 hours until you feel better pass quickly. I’m sorry to hear about your job - I’ve been fired for symptoms, too, and it made me feel so helpless, betrayed, and useless. You will find a better fit, though.
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Damn man your words really struck me pretty hard. It feels too real.
I think it’s a real problem with the world now to feel some kind of responsibility to want to do something important. It’s just a huge burden now and a shame it should have to fall on individuals who shouldn’t have to bother with it.
Can’t just be to be anymore. It all starts to crash really hard even more when you have trouble trusting people. Sooo much harder.
I hope you’ll pull through though.
I don’t know why I do, but I do. Maybe it isn’t the greatest thing to hear, but somehow I think things will turn out better.
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If im not depressed im psychotic and if im not psychotic im depressed its an endless cycle. I wish i could have some peace
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