I have issues with breathing now. I gasp for air, become faint and dizzy, my ears ring.
Feel like at 32 and I’m already dying of everything. My lungs/heart/blood.
what can I do to increase my health other than exercise? I have lost interest in many things that used to make me happy, I feel in an Abilify fog now. Because they injected me with a two-months worth supply of it and not really something I wanted. I was hospitalized against my consent, or under threat of being certified–so technically voluntarily involuntary committed. I am not healthy with the meds I’m on, or any of my aftercare–because I have no aftercare. Just a bunch of pills to take and no idea what else to do.
My mom isn’t being supportive, she’s in denial. She wont take her haldol anymore and it stopped working anyways. She thinks I should be like her, and is pushing her anti-psychiatry narrative on me and anti-establishment craziness. I told her I almost died because I missed a dose of medication. She doesn’t care, because she’s not her right now, she’s a complete stranger…but let her watch two and a half men in fantasyland.
I cant find anything worth holding onto. I just feel like I’m dying, and I dont want to die.