life isn’t that bad, I’m not suffering terribly continuously but I find that one of the effects of schizophrenia (or maybe it is my personality also) is that not much is very interesting. I’m staying around watching youtube most of the day.
I’ve done everything in life I wanted to do and I lack the hopeful optimism of my youth.
How do you feel about it?
I sometimes feel this way like the last few days but sometimes I’m crazy hopeful. Now I’m feeling a bit better. I’m very sensitive to triggers to changes in mood. And I blow things out of proportion.
I also feel complete and that i have done it all. Nothing else to do or learn or achieve.
I feel purposeless. So I enjoy life and play my role with humour
Sometimes I feel I have nothing important to do in the world. I feel bored, I feel tired. But I still find some little things that make me want to keep on living.
I can relate to this. Sometimes just feel straight up worthless. But it is in fact easy to remind myself that life is worth living these days based on things that make me happy. But I guess we all want to have a purpose, a drive, passions. Some days we must appreciate the littler things because our favorite passions don’t motivate us as much gotta fall back on nature and coffee and flowers and the sky.
I enjoy sleeping.
I enjoy having a morning cup of tea or coffee.
I enjoy youtube.
I enjoy reading.
I don’t enjoy traveling that much anymore because I have traveled a lot.
My girlfriend says I’m like an old man waiting to die. I’m 35 years old.
Do you have any goals you could set?
I would like to be helping people in a greater way. Maybe helping other people with mental illness or being a teacher. But I’m living in Thailand right now not in my home country (USA)
Can you volunteer?
I am like this when I am depressed. I feel like i’m just killing time til I die. I recently went through a depression and nothing was interesting or enjoyable. I am out of the depression now but still have some residual anhedonia. Things are better, though, so i’m thankful for that.
I Just started learning Spanish. Learning a new language can be stimulating to deal with boredom.
I’m studying Thai a bit because I’m living in Thailand. I could get more into that I guess.
I have lots of boredom and I am feeling old. I don’t think this is a good attitude and I am trying to change it.
I’m trying to relearn calculus. Man, not sure how I did so well years ago and became a failed math major due to schizophrenia. It is hard but doable. It’s on coursera from an ivy league school. Anyone can do it and it is free. The quality is high. I have a book to study along with it. Stuff like this is hard but keeps me going and kills boredom.
I’m hopeless when it comes to learning languages but I like German. Programming is fun too.
It’s kind of funny but I’m 57 but I have my little adventures. Sometimes I feel alive.
To me, being bored is a privilege and a right. I’m through with all the stupid drama of going to psyche wards or doing drugs. Now I just like relaxing and enjoying my peace of mind. Now I enjoy my mind slowing down instead of it racing constantly. But you can’t drive on California’s freeways without a little conflict which can be fun sometimes, but it gets serious too. But hell yeah, bring on the boredom, I deserve it.
Part of my issue is I live away from home and away from my family and Netflix 
I tend to throw myself into something stupid or stressful regularly enough to be more overwhelmed than bored. It isnt recommendable.
My next goal is to learn to bear boredom. Feeling bored seems better than constant turmoil. I admire people who can live calm lives. Nothing wrong with that.
I don’t know what I’m doing here.
Martin your story is interesting! Checked your profile, you’ve had SZ for over 50 years. Congrats on making it this far. Have the symptoms gotten easier to deal with over time?
this site helps me get through the day…my life is total crap otherwise…haven’t had a friend in 11 yrs…im lucky not to be lonely as I live with my parents