I’m getting more and more anxious about my plans for tomorrow. I’m going with my daughter to her pre-natal appointment because they may keep her to have the baby. The anxiety comes from having to ride on a highway, at highway speeds, in a car, omg. I just know we’re going to crash and die. I can’t stop thinking about it.
Other than hospitalizations I’ve only been out of town once in the last several years. When I’ve gone I’ve been heavily sedated. I don’t want to be sedated for this trip. I want to be there for my daughter. I’m already so anxious I feel like I need Ativan right now. I guess I’m just going to have to take Ativan tomorrow and hope I can stay coherent for the trip. I just don’t think I can handle it without. I’ve been desperately trying to find a way to control my anxiety, and I’m making headway but only for minor anxiety. This is the big one, this is why I got back into therapy. I guess I started too late to do any good. God I feel like a failure.
If the anxiety is preventing you from doing something, it helps sometimes just to remember in the back of your mind that there is no basis for your freaking out. Keep going about your business, exercise, meditate, listen to calming music or sniff lavender. But most importantly, go about your business. Act like the anxiety is not there. Personally I’ve found that anxiety is not a severe life debilitating illness. It is a little monster with a big mask. Get past the mask and you are half way there… That is my personal experience. Meds + therapy helped me.
I get anxious in the car, also. I’ve found that the more I force myself to drive, the easier it is. If I go a week without driving, my anxiety is much worse. If I force myself to get out every day, I can cope much better. But that doesn’t answer how to get over the initial anxiety. For me, it’s like ripping off a band-aid. I just have to force myself to do it.
So sorry to hear you are going through so much anxiety @Leaf. Hope you will be okay during your trip, it seems everything will be okay. Wish the best for you and your daughter.