So I am finishing my bsc, but like i said i wanted to masters…but i think i failed today’s midterm; it was a memorization of names and i couldn’t remember any of them. Normally I do well on these things, but not today. And these voices are taunting me. It is so hard. It is hard seeing everyone achieving their dreams and I am having my memory deteriorating. I feel lonely alot of the time and hope to have my friends come online facebook so i can talk to them as much as i can. I think i dwell in these voices because of my loneliness. I also find that alot of people are stuck up in university and won’t talk to you unless you act or look a certain way. Things just don’t seem that great 
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I’m sorry about your exam. I had a bit of a freeze up on my Biology final last semester. I have a good rapport with my peers at my current school, but the one I’m moving to is much bigger and less friendly.
Ask your professor about possible extra credit. If you are honest about your illness and what you were going through it will help. Also if you haven’t already, sign up with your disability office on campus.
I don’t need a bunch of friends. Two or three are enough for me at a time. Let those people be be stuck-up. You can still go to the parties and restaurants of your choosing and enjoy some music and a good meal. ANYONE is allowed in a restaurant. Stuck-up or not. Many schools I know have a “Disabled Student Services” program. You register there and they will not only sometimes pay for classes or enrollment fees they will help you get accommodations. Like setting it up so you can take tests ALONE in an empty classroom. And give you a little more time than the other students. but I know as well as anybody how hard life can be. It ain’t easy, unfortunately.
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I’m not making a lot of friends in college either. Sometimes that hurts my feelings. But my sis gave me a good way to look at it…
collage is very transitional and everyone is on the road to some where else. A lot of people are too busy to make friends and some people don’t like to make friends just to leave them behind or be left behind in a few months.
That doesn’t always help, and I wish people were friendlier at time… but it is something to consider.
I took @77nick77 advice when I first started college and I went to the schools “Disabled student Services” and I’ve been able to take my test in a different room with a proctor… also I’ve gotten help with notes and I get tutoring help too.
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@ramnee89, You have done well so far, one bad grade in mid term doesn’t mean you can’t achieve your goal. You have so much going on, this illness is not easy, hearing voices constantly and being lonely is hard. The social skills for most people who were out going before the illness is not there any more. I can say this because my son had several friends every weekend at his apartment and he cooked for them. Now he hardly has any friends. Life has to go on. Make the best of it. Things will get better and you have already proved it by going to college. My son doesn’t take tests separately but he does fill up the forms at the beginning of each semester, professors sign them and it goes to his counselor. Good luck to you.
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I had a rough time my junior year in college so I decided to scale back and just take one course. In my spare time I joined an on campus community action corps and volunteered in the inner city teaching poor kids to read and cleaning up parks. I met a lot of very nice people who were way outside my major and were interested in more than partying or being intellectuals. I wasn’t the greatest teacher and I still ended up having my breakdowns after I graduated but looking back it was something I am so happy I did.
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Thanks guys. All your encouragements are important to me. Thanks for making me realize that though I did bad in two of my courses, i still have a chance. I do write with a proctor and all though. Thanks for all your support