I really relate to this. Our last move took us back close to Calgary, Alberta. I live half an hour drive from it now (and @Mountainman – cheers, mate). I took my wife for a tour of my old haunting grounds and showed her my old junior high school. I have to admit that it took some effort to not park Vlad the Impala and urinate on the front door of the school. I hate it THAT much. Very glad to have moved on from it, that’s for sure.
I’d say I’m doing very well. Coming up on 29 years sober, HP willing. My health is pretty good compared to this time last year. The new pacer really copes with the atrial fibrilation nicely and I’m out walking up a storm again, which feels great. I’ve mostly cleaned up my diet and the therapy is helping, too. I just feel more cheerful. We’re certainly blessed as a family that both Mrs. Squirrel and I have stayed employed through this crazy year that has hurt so many. In terms of SZ and autism, I continue to be very stable overall.
No complaints other than the usual crap about in-laws.
school for me too was a crappy time, after school i was better for a bit but then got sick and got worse and now i’m a bit better than when i was sick. It goes up and down though.
Public school was bad for me, but it’s where sons and daughters of diplomats go. Naively being honest about my lack of knowledge re sex, while the other boys were boasting, got me branded as a weirdo. The physical and social awkwardness added to it. I still remember waiting for a teacher to come in and take a geography lesson and a dozen or so boys directing monkey chants at me .
When I was psychotic I was a total wreck - not eating, sleeping and walking the streets for several nights
Once I found a good medication (Olanzapine, 20mg), things improved
I now have control of my mind and initially I was suffering from negative symptoms but these have improved substantially. I can now feel joy and intense joy for life
The only issue is that Psychosis robbed me of my medical career, and it’s really difficult to fill that void in my life
I’m doing a lot better than I was 3 years ago. I’m not delusional, don’t here too many voices, don’t really hallucinate, have insight into my illness, stay grounded in reality, maintain my hygiene, work a little bit and have recently just started therapy to deal with my past traumas and all the abuse I went through as a child. I have slight PTSD and my sleep is disturbed.
Considering I almost died last time I was unstable, and walking in the middle of the night and not showing for day’s I’m happy where I am right now. The next step I’m trying to figure out is how to get off disability.
5 years ago was when I was doing my best,
I still had a joy for life back then.
The madness got to my mind and I sit empty today and deal with depression.
I’m a lot better I’m pretty much normal and I drink so much coffee that the meds aren’t strong at all. I was suicidal everyday for two years and used to go to this guys house and he’d have sex with me and take advantage of me him and his friend. I never realized how creepy he was. He specifically took advantage of me knowing that I was recovering from a serious mental breakdown. He never wore a condom so when I realized I shouldn’t talk to him I suddenly got scared I was HIV positive for like a year. I was scared to get tested. I was 24 at that time. I also got to 250 pounds and lost all my self confidence. Then I lost a bunch of weight and have recovered although my last hospitalization was 2019
luckily im doing alot better in the past 9 months…i really have to put it down to being on two anti psyuchotics at the same time…20mg olanzapine and 800mg quetiapine …its a large dose but it keep s me well …id rather be on this than put up with sz crap
I’m doing better then when I first started showing symptoms. The other day, I have felt a bit of what you can call confidence in me, that I felt that I could take on the working society again in the US… I hope to have a normal life again. I couldn’t done it without my family and people on this forum. It has been a great support system and help. Taking on life one step at a time.
I am a lot worse than before my sz but much better than the last 10 years of schizophrenia since I was diagnosed. I tried 5 antipsychotics and Wellbutrin, the Risperdal I am on now is the best of everything I tried.
I’m better then I was when I first got put on invega but way worst than I was before I started showing symptoms. I deal with Anhedonia, lack of motivation, agitation, boredom, sexual dysfunction, motor skill impairment etc. Hopefully the Abilify I’m switching to will be better. Eventually I’d like to get off meds.
