I’m not.Sometimes I think that my diagnosis was a big mistake.I was convinced to take the meds in order to be more calm with other people, especially to my kids.The psychiatrist even told me “I know you won’t believe that you have schizophrenia” when she gave me the meds.I’m afraid it’s a self-fulfilling prophecy, because I’ve read somewhere that once you start taking anti-psychotics, your brain changes and you really become psychotic if you stop taking them.I’d tell you more but I don’t feel like it.
Lack of insight is a schizophrenics worst enemy.
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good post
I never wanted to believe that I’m any different than anybody else
it’s self defeating. I wasn’t easily convinced.
I wanted to believe: Know yourself. I thought I had a good grasp on it.
I think my mother still thinks it’s because I couldn’t handle my two disabled kids.
absolutely not.
No. And that’s why the pdoc said denial was a part of the illness. Later the DX changed though.
No. Even the doctors are changing the diagnosis all the time though, from ptsd to schizophrenia to bipolar to borderline to autism back to schizophrenia.
I know i had (have?) psychosis, but i do not believe in the story of it being a genetic,
chronic brain disease which is caused by imbalance in neurotransmitters.
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Nobody is ever 100% sure with anything…
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Don’t blame the meds. They help a lot and without them you might be screwed.
This kind of thought process has resulted in several relapses for me personally, and I am done with this kind of thinking.
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many things, screwed that I couldn’t stop forced speech,
and couldn’t manage raising two kids, and then qualifying for SSDI.
I’ve never written word salad, never had less ambition than anyone
I just had to admit, I’m not right, and who doesn’t that include?
Voices sometimes try to tell me I’m not sick, they try to trick me into going off meds
I was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder, it’s not my first time.
I’ve also been diagnosed with schizoaffective in the past.
Honestly it doesn’t matter to me anymore.
The meds are the same.
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Hey, i totally know what you’re going through/thinking. First, yes, antipsychotics chane the brain and produce more dopamine to try to cancel out the AP. But the AP still works, the increase in dopamine is accounted for when a pdoc is titrating you on yor meds. When you suddenly stop taking the AP, the dopamine has increased like i said and you may exprrience even more psychosis. This however is temporary. The brain is amazing, and will adjust over time so that your dopamine levels return to their norm before the AP. What you will find though is that after some time you will still experience psychosis, even when the brain goes back to normal. Please stay on your meds. And remember to do research from every angle not just one that reaffirms what your hoping to find (im super guilty of this, not saying you are, just guessing).
In my experience, i think accepting your diagnosis is very very important. It may be the most important thing to a true recovery. I have no advise for you to figure out if you have schizophrenia, because its very personal, but i wish you luck.
Parting words, 70% of schizophrenics dont believe they have a problem.
(Sorry for the long post)
does this mean you’re not on meds
but encourage us to stay on meds?
I’m pretty sure
Thats what screwed me for years. No aps and no insight. Plus the fact i was just seen as an alcoholic for years by the hospital. Even then it took three months of being batshit crazy on a relapse, before i was taken seriously. I have letters saying i should have been diagnosed years before.
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No i went back on my meds. Ive been on abilify for 2 months. I prefer meds now than not.
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I’m not sure there is something called schizophrenia I think it might be the devil at work
I have voices and sometimes pictures in my head, so I’m sure I have schizophrenia. If I didn’t hallucinate I’d probably question the diagnosis from time to time.
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Shelly, why do you say that? that’s what those hard core ones say.
I’ve walked the walk, still the affliction. Do you think the devil wants the good ones?
I don’t even know if I believe in the devil and god I hope there is god
I better shut up now we’re not allowed to discuss religion
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Sometimes i feel its someone making the voices sometimes i think its got a religious/spiritual thing going on, sometimes i think ive been drugged but these days its easier to say i have mental illness then it is to believe the other crap so thats what i go with mostly even tho im not always sure.