I’m always slow, but I have short legs. I have to double-step to keep up with people all the time. Used to, I just compensated by power walking everywhere all the time like I’m in a rush. Now I kinda lag and bumble around. I don’t know if it’s the medication, negative symptoms, or what, though.
Yeah. I only have one gear now when I do something. In the old days I’d have several gears and could really push myself.
It’s a compromise. I find the meds give me a relatively stable mind. That improves my life but it does come at a bit of a cost. I don’t mind paying that to leave paranoia behind me!
Meanwhile I have to learn that I can’t do what I used to do!
I’m definitely out of shape. I haven’t compared myself with my brother, but I am a lot slower and I feel even dumber compared to my boss now at things I used to be relatively quick with.
I feel kinda retarded now, tbh. I keep making minor mistakes I would have never made before. I keep misinterpreting things. My bf says I keep taking everything he says that could remotely be construed as an attack on me as an attack on me.
I feel mentally slow on meds, which is why I went off them in the past. Honestly, sometimes I like the creative, genius feeling I have when I’m psychotic, even if it’s an illusion.
I hate meds I took medicine that did this to me before I was diagnosed and they thought I was some weird kind of bipolar which if you new me at all is really not it I didn’t have my actual voice in my head and all the others were there which wasn’t good and I started failing my classes because I couldn’t concentrate and I just didn’t care about anything it kinda felt like I was depressed but I didn’t feel anything