Any good news today?

I’m having a good day but my mind is always finding new things to make me feel like crap about.

How do you guys handle the endless inner critical voice in your head? Like for me no matter what I’m doing no matter how nice I treat other people I still feel put down every day …all day. It’s so bad that almost anything that can be twisted into something negative my mind tells me that it’s an indictment against me…even when watching cartoons…

So any words of encouragement to help deal with these toxic feelings today? Btw… other than that my day is going very well :mending_heart:

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My philosophy is: if you give your mind something to think about it won’t ruminate.

Your brain is always seeking activity and stimulation. Id you give it something to think about like reading etc you can have control over what you think about.

Also may be underlying depression

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I guess I had some good news, I maybe able to register late to a geography degree through the open university in the uk. It’s a distance learning university and the course would be funded

I agree with the poet, having something to engage with is great for the mind

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I decided that I might not go to uni. That’s really expensive.

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Bad news and good news. When my tooth was pulled three weeks ago the oral surgeon must have chipped off the one next to it, leaving a jagged edge that my tongue rubs against. It hurts but the good news is that I called my dentist this morning and he can fit me in today at 2:45 to file it down or whatever it takes.

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I did more cleaning today. Long overdue… Years.

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That’s awesome man! Hope you get to study :books::open_book::slightly_smiling_face:

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I have to get my tooth pulled to :expressionless: Im terrified

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It’s pretty painless. You feel a little pressure and it’s out. Including getting numbed up, it takes about thirty to forty minutes, it’s a bit more complicated if it’s a wisdom tooth.

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Listening to positive affirmations may be helpful.

Positive kind words!

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Dude just get anaesthesia. I wish literally laughing while getting mine pulled. Didn’t even notice it one bit. They gave me laughing gas and it seemed like 5 minutes and legit I was laughing at the stupidest things the whole time. They had to ask me to calm down lmao

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@ThePoet Were you on antipsychotics when they gave you laughing gas?? :thinking:

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I just got to cancel the insurance of a customer I don’t like and send them a very large bill. Misery is one of those things that is better when it is shared.

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No this was before I was diagnosed why?

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I just played my drums and banged them out like I was in my 20s again. Felt really good again. I was struggling seriously with inner criticism today also. I try to distinguish is it symptoms of schizophrenia like voices or thought insertions or telepathy or something that is a positive symptom of schizophrenia. Or is it like my conscience or of my ego. But definitely very critical and convicting in holding me accountable for my life and actions. I try to think of what the situation is. It’s issues like me being in total control of myself. Also issues of shame guilt and responsibility. I mean if I can definitely say it’s voices or positive symptoms of schizophrenia I will just totally disregard it. And feel good that I am achieving and going on with my life and actually not being stopped by it. I think is this criticism important to me is it keeping me out of trouble is it something that is good to be concerned about. Is the criticism something that I actually should be responsible with in life. If the inner criticism it’s just constant negativity about me and degrading me for no reason no important reason. I just say it’s schizophrenic positive symptoms. If this inner criticism is just totally disrespectful to me. Then I will have no respect for it. If this inner criticism has ever led me to success and my life which in a ways my inner criticism has. I have stopped a lot of bad things like vaping and alcohol and marijuana and now I’m on a very healthy diet also, because of inner criticism constantly bothering me about it. I try to notice is this inner criticism just completely personal with me or does it criticize others. Does my inner criticism actually criticize others. And at times it does. Also for me my inner criticism is kind of comparing me to others or the whole world even. And if this inner criticism is mine and with me every day for the rest of my life. I will make sure it’s for good and not bad. it’s purpose is to make me feel good actually. If this criticism is kind of trying to guide me to less suffering or even not suffering at all. Is the inner criticism trying to keep me from making a mistake again or not make a mistake now or in the future. I know I’m a forgiving person so my inner criticism will be forgiving or it’s not mine. I know I’m a loving person so if my inner criticism isn’t loving I know it’s not mine. I know I’m a competitive person so if my inner criticism is competitive with me in a way I think it might be genuine.

I was just curious what it would be like having laughing gas on antipsychotics like if theres any interaction or anything

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I was on laughing gas while having four of my wisdom teeth pulled out. And then I got in the car and drove home afterwards. It’s no big deal. I guess it just relaxed me a bit almost sort of like a benzo or Ativan or whatever. But once it stopped at the effects go immediately. Once he remove that mask from my face the effects of the gas just immediately stopped.

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Oh true dude yea I was wondering if they interact or something. Yea that was way before I was on aps so I wouldn’t know

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Yea… my inner critic is like that too. I don’t think it’s helpful in any way but maybe my brain is trying to help me in a backwards way.

I read this book that talked a lot about the inner critic and unwanted thoughts… it said they usually are there to try to help us but they end up really doing the opposite.

I just have to take it day by day and be thankful for the good days and mindful on the bad …I think

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I’m having a great day but know how you feel. My nephew started school today and I had my teeth cleaned and haircut. I guess try not get to caught up in yourself. Being with others helps.

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