My partner went to visit friends this weekend in another state. I had to work so I couldn’t be there with him.
He just left a few minutes ago and the apartment feels so empty already. I don’t know why but I’m crying over this. I hate being without him. Maybe it’s clingy but it makes me genuinely sad.
Also I’m out of my sleep meds and I’ve been having nightmares every night. The only thing that helps is having him around to ground me.
Plus I worry that someone will notice his car is gone and try to break in at night. It keeps me up. He is my only protector and he is gone.
I miss my husband a lot when he travels for work. Most of the time he’s gone Monday-Friday - back home Friday night - and it’s not so bad. He has to go to Germany again at the end of the month. He’ll be gone the weekend. It’s hardest when he’s gone over the weekend.
I’m sorry you feel alone without the company of your partner. Maybe you could find something enjoyable to pass the time such as watching movies or write diaries. Time flies so your partner will come home soon.
The feeling of loneliness like you are feeling can be experienced even amongst those who do not suffer from SZ/SZA from time to time. So please stop judging yourself so harshly! Trust me when I say you need to change your mindset! You are stronger than you know, you just need to have confidence in yourself that you can endure just fine on your own, even if it is not ideal.
I go through the same thing when my husband goes on his short photography related trips. It’s out of the question that I can go too, but I have all those same worries when I’m left alone.
Every few years he visits his dad in Australia for three weeks and I go into orbit knowing he’s so far away. I would never want him to cut off from his dad in the slightest, but I go through your same struggles. You’re not alone.
I agree. Weekends are hard. I picked up extra shifts at work to pass the time. I’m hoping the time will go by quickly. He will be home on Monday. That’s only two more nights alone.
Thank you. These are good suggestions. I picked up some extra shifts at work to pass the time. I’ve also been zoning out on Minecraft. I really suck at hand eye coordination but I’m noticing that I’m getting better the more I play. Plus it’s so dang relaxing. I’ll also be watching Flowers for Algernon as mentioned by @shutterbug.
Thank you, your comment makes me feel like I just got some sense slapped into me haha. I’m feeling a bit more confident today having survived last night alone. Just two more nights to go and he’ll be home.
Thank you for the kind words. It really sucks when you can’t come along. I think I would be an absolute mess if I knew my partner was a world away. Sorry that you have to be alone knowing he is so far. It’s great that you’re supportive of him seeing his family even if it means being alone for a while. I’m sure he appreciates it more than you realize.
Man I’m sorry Zma, I used to live in a ■■■■ neighborhood just a few years ago. I could NEVER sleep. I once heard someone get shot and die in the next house over. It was bad. I hope your place isn’t quite that bad and that you’re eventually able to move to a better neighborhood.
I’ve been out of that place for a while. I live in a quiet apartment building now. Only 8 units and in a good part of town. No need to feel bad, though I appreciate the sentiment.
Sorry that your neighborhood is so rough. Do you have plans to move in the future? Ik moves can be costly.
