Hi I’m new to the forum. I’m just after a bit of advice as I’m a bit confused as to what’s going on with me. Been seeing pdoc but I’ve had alot of confusion with different diagnoses and doctor seems confused too.
6 months ago I was studying to be a doctor looking after my son, life was really good (quite stressful but ok!).
Then my personality changed, mood swings along with my sleeping pattern, I didn’t sleep for 6 days at one point. I eventually had to pull out of uni and my sons being looked after by someone else as aparrently my behaviour was erratic. I would go out driving around in circles losing track of time and been getting in trouble with the police as I thought that they were playing games with me so I therefore decided I would play back. Furthermore I started feeling really paranoid about cars following me, people talking about me and about the medical professionals around me.
I constantly feel like the world looks different like its false and I get the floor shifting and walls breathing alot of the time. I also see transparent bugs or black flies in the corner of my eye alot. I get these really strange thoughts in my head like on the bus there was knocking and i thought there was someone trapped under the bus which i really believed for a few minutes then realised maybe it was a silly idea. Or I feel like some news articles online are for me. Also when i look at people their faces morph into other things its quite scary sometimes! Lots more but I don’t want to write a novel!
I’ve been hospitalised about 8 times been diagnosed with adjustment disorder, borderline, depression, anxiety, acute stress reaction, physcosis, bipolar by different professionals as they cannot agree. I really would appreciate some advice, I’m finding it hard to cope as they’re keeping me medication free so they can make a new diagnosis. Just want things to go back to the way they were