Struggling with addiction. Anyone else have co occurring illness? What are your health strategies? How do you beat your own compulsions?
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I’m an alcoholic. But I’m coming up to 10 years sober. I had to go to alcoholic anonymous to get help. I got lucky with them and they helped. When I went to them I thought alcohol was worth dying for.
I don’t think you can beat an addiction like that on your own. You really need a group setting. If it’s just you alone with your addiction you’re toast in my opinion.
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I had an addiction problem and took care of it in AA, CA and NA. I now have 33 years clean and sober.
I also tried dual diagnosis programs.
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My addiction ended with an intervention from the law
I was placed on a community rehabilitation order for 12 months
They drug tested me every week for a year with a swab
It worked
Problem was I was never taught how to make real friendships
I started smoking weed when I was 11 and after a few years got completely out of control
Ended up taking cocaine, ecstasy, magic mushrooms, crack cocaine, LSD
Thankfully I never injected, but I was getting High anyway I could
Fitting back into society just never happened for me
My social skills are ruined having grown up around drug dealers and the violence and manipulation
The rehab I did worked though. Had one relapse where I took loads of coke, but luckily nothing for 13 years now and counting
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Im a chronic relapser. My story is similar to yours minus the longterm intervention. I dont know real friendship or how to be a friend. I know how to make myself feel better when all else fails. Thats what ive known for 25 years
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Seek the help if you can. There are good people out there trying to help
Let them help you
Breaking the habit can work
But try not to get into lots of trouble before you get to address the problems you have
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My problems are definitely deep rooted and have taken me to horrible places of trauma as ive gotten older. Mostly self inflicted. Truly suicide comes to mind kind of frequently. I think the only reason i havent is fear of the unknown and losing what goodness actually is in my life.
I get high to feel better. I want to feel better without substance. Everything feels like a chore. There is so little that i even take the time to appreciate anymore. Like my family. Im overall selfish and destructive and they are just as affected. Sometimes i want to distance myself completely but i need them. I need some kind of love. Even if its conditional.
I know that sounds weak and my personal security should come from within. The actuality is i AM weak. I dont have the tenacity to get up and go like i did in my younger years. Im worn out, depressed and exhausted.
Ive been to NA meetings and it does help when i conquer my fear of being judged and hated. But i never persist.
Im happy for you and your sobriety. Maybe one day i will look back with the same time behind me.
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I hope you can get to that place
Not easy but worth the while
Wish you the best of luck and hope you can get past this problem
Thank you joker
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