I didn’t have much contact with her, but I still feel surprisingly sad about it. I think I’m maybe mostly sad that she died alone in a hospital bed.
I want to cry but I can’t.
I feel silly. we weren’t that close, and I only saw her maybe once a year.
I could use some help getting through this, as my roommates are of no comfort.
“She was old and we’ve never heard you mention her so you can’t have been close.”
I’m sorry for your loss. It’s hard to lose someone no matter the distance in the family they are still our family none the less. You’ll grieve in your own way in your own time sweetie. Be extra kind to yourself and your other family members need you now more that ever.
Hugs. I am currently grieving the loss of my cousin’s grandpa. Also a distant relative I was not super close to, but the heart doesn’t quantify relationships like that. When you love someone, and can’t share that love with them anymore, it really really sucks. And continues to suck for quite some time. There is no threshold that says “You must be this close to a person in order to miss them when they are dead.” Losing someone is losing someone, and it hits us sometimes very unexpectedly.
Sorry for your loss @Pikasaur. Some people are very social and others are the opposite and prefer to be alone with their thoughts. Perhaps that’s what happened. Just a natural inclination over time. It’s quite common that people living with schizophrenia prefer alone time. That doesn’t mean you don’t have strong feelings inside. If you miss your Great Aunt Kirsten then that’s how you feel and that’s the truth. Your roommates have a shallow understanding of you. My advice is just forgive them. Maybe they will gain more insight into human suffering next time around.
I know it feel like someone let the air out of your tire when you lose someone. It’s time for deep breathing and keeping things in perspective. I wish you well.
I’m sorry for your loss. I feel sad when people I don’t even know die. So when someone you do know dies it’s that much harder because the loss is personal. Don’t let your roommates take away from how you’re feeling. Your loss is real and you’re entitled to grieve.