Thought I haven’t photographed myself during a psychotic episode I know when I was in my last relapse I was an emotional wreck. I was crying all the time. Now when I’m at my worst all I want to do is hide under my covers and make the world go away. I probably look a mess at those times too from laying down all the time my hair all a mess. No beard/stubble not a guy…but still probably a site to see. Though I agree with you I hate that you can’t just look at someone and say they have Schizophrenia.
That’s one of the things I hate about this disorder because unless you can’t really control yourself and constantly acting crazy (or just reacting to what’s going on in your head) sometimes people don’t know what’s really going on in your head and may not fully understand that you have a disorder. Sometimes I worry people think I’m making it up because I’m not always sitting in public talking to myself (that is why I take all my meds after all).