Interesting Head Swirl Today

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Hello all, happy Monday :slight_smile:

Mollie here. New to the forums and new to learning about psychosis, but have been having active delusions and hallucinations since 01/22/20. I plan on switching therapists this week to a specialist I found and am open to meds, but it’s going to take some time to apply for state aid etc and get it worked out. Any who.

I read that people with SZ have distorted thinking. I’ve been told that on and off in one way or another my whole life. I always thought I was just cynical, negative and smarter than everyone around me.

If you’re happy then you are obviously stupid and unable to see how screwed up everything in this world is. Because it is. And to be happy is to pretend otherwise.

I don’t want to live in a pretend world with all the happy people. I like the real world where I see the truth. I don’t want meds to take that away from me.

Thanks for giving me a place to be.

Healthy plans in place today - got the house clean and will go grocery shopping for food. Have a great day yourselves.

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Welcome to the forum Mollie!

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Nice post @MollienBax, i can relate to a lot of what you said, about the world and feeling clever because other people don’t get it.

But at some point I realised I was only seeing the rational analytical parts of life, and those happy people were seeing more… like friendship and emotional connection and all those small things that distract them from the worlds brokenness.

Now I want to be happy too.

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Being happy and positive is facing reality just as much as being negative and depressed.

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Welcome @MollienBax !

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