I was 19, a grade 6 drop out that somehow managed to self teach myself into a network technician job which lead to a job in network security. It was great pay, I had my own car, apartment. It was amazing. Of course the less amazing part was how I thought my family was trying to kill me and that my boss was involved w organized crime. So I quit my job, spent my savings, then when I had basically nothing I heard voices making me go to the hospital where I learned I’m schizophrenic. It’s been just over a year and I’ve been in the psych ward 5 times. Recently bc I tried to kill myself with morphine and 60 mg of Klonopin. I live w family, my boss won’t hire me back, I have no friends (haven’t for a decade), no girlfriend. Basically no purpose. All of a sudden I don’t give a damn about technology or maths. Ive tried so many medications. Where’s the hope? Sorry, needed to vent.
Life is best when the mind is flexible and can adapt to the current situation with little stress over what had been.
True. I need to accept it fully in order to adapt. It just seems to be such a slow process. Thanks for the insight though.
It might get better though. Maybe if you keep trying meds you’ll end up with the right combination and you’ll be able to get a new job. Hang in there!
I feel the same dude. stay strong & have patience.
It takes a few years to adapt to the radical change of life this illness imposes on us. But remember that it is still possible to live a happy life even with schizophrenia. 
Don’t blame the Dx, blame the brain damage
I blamed the illness / diagnosis too. You have SZ but your diagnosis doesn’t define you.
SZ has ruined my life.
Over time I have been forced to accept this outcome.
I have no choice but to accept it.
Ultimately not all of us get to function well.
I feel you. I feel like this diagnosis has ruined my life too! I am 19, I was just about to attend college when I first started hearing voices and went into a full blown psychosis. Now I feel like I have no purpose here anymore…
I feel the same way. Dx’ed at 14, I’m 37. (Sza)For some years I was ok with this life. Then I kept getting exposed to what the normies have. Later I heard of people with similar illnesses that had made a life for themselves. It was after I thought I had hope and I realized it was likely a false hope, that is what started off and on depression
well at least you have family to support you? that is a very valuable asset to have…don’t be too hard on yourself. It takes working with your pdoc to get the meds you need to not have side effects…please don’t give up. I am sorry to hear of your suicide attempt.