I don’t know, i dont like having them. They seem very real to me but it’s better when i deny them. I keep telling myself “bro, no one wants to stalk you. You arent even interesting”
It does shield me though from the harsh light of reality in a way. I don’t think I was doing myself any good by thinking about how time just keeps moving, the bleakness of space, death. It was just two years ago that I was losing touch with reality, reading too much about things that don’t really affect me.
Now i spend most of my days thinking about music, video games, what i want to do that day and just mundane things. Well except for the occasional paranoia setting in where i think people are stalking me. It gets hard walking near people because i think theyre part of this gang of people out to get me.
Good thing headphones exist 