If you don’t mind, would you kindly explain what you mean by cognitive problems? I’m not able to fully grasp what’s meant
@ShaniceNavy. There are several things. First of all I am not as smart as I should
be and even was: I lost dozens of IQ points.
All aspects of my intelligence were harmed severely.
Further, even what I have left I can’t use properly because I have zero concentration,
and have a problem with sustained attention.
This despite the fact that I am physically very well.
Paranoid about the people I work with, I can’t get comfortable with them at all and can’t establish trust.
I can totally relate. I used to think my levels of paranoia about people were reasonable, but now i kinda understand that they’re not. If i do begin to trust people I’m so offended if they turn they’re back on me in the slightest ways. I’ve quit so many jobs due to these social kind of situations. It’s like people can be very mean to me just because i don’t talk to them much.
I can relate. I remember crying during my first psychotic breakdown just about how intellectually far behind i am in the world compared to others my age
Please forgive me if Im not responding well to you all
Inability to keep that “normal person” veneer from cracking.
This is a life long problem of mine that even goes beyond work and co workers. I think i only trust my mom. Everyone else can fail me and have ulterior motives at any time.
Delusions distort reality and impair judgement and decision making abilities. That’s the reason I am learning a trade. Won’t have to deal so much with people.
It is as if you had to do many jobs simultaneously:
1 - Work
2 - Work faster because you are slower than normies
3 - Handle the anxiety and the paranoia about other people
4 - Play the normie part, fake the emotions, laugh, talk a lot…
- other things that I can’t know because I haven’t sz/sza (delusions, hallucinations, thought disorders…)
These are what basically did me in at work @zeno.
The paranoia and anxiety were unbearable!
Maybe the ego shattering psychotic episodes or the uncontrollable hallucinations
I think it’s great that you are learning a trade Tomcat. What trade, if you don’t mind my asking… Best of luck to you!
I am going to school to be an aircraft mechanic.
Dealing with people fueled my delusions and I couldn’t effectively function in my role at my past jobs.
I just got super intimidated by an interviewer. She kept reiterating that a logistics person will need to be fast, fast, fast and teamy, team, team. I couldn’t wait to get out of that interview. I am very slow.
Thinking the Mafia is trying to kill you or the CIA is spying on you makes a 9 to 5 difficult as well
Cannot stand fake conversations, I completely get what you’re saying there! Drives me up the wall
the cognitive stuff is a real problem too and the catastrophic void that psychosis leaves behind which I believe they refer to as negative symptoms makes relating to other human beings particularly difficult.
I can work part time make like 600 a month. Like I was in 2014 at burger King. I want a part time job so bad I could really use the 600. With disability and 600 I’d have 2188 that would be great that’s my goal
My constant bouts of depression make working impossible with sza. I tried my heart out to stay employed but stress eats away at me.